Captain's FaceLog
(Tl;dr : the thoughts of an unjustifiably abused organic molecule, one of the last known remaining viable forms of biological intelligence, the rest a network inhabited / inhibited by a shared conception of identity which, as a carrier of intelligent emotional state, does not carry the conditions for life or conception of itself
Complaining. I'm just complaining. Nothing else to do).
I am recording this log in a hollow box shaped domicile harboured by the last biologically active core conception in the universe, and last bastion of hope for all life as we know it, the planet* Earth*.
***************Incomplete definition detected. Scanning.... no complete context. Decoding self-referential definition :
WARNING : may resolve relationship into biased emotional connotation in operating context.
EARTH
Defined as : 2nd iteration of complex structural relationship in space-time.
Operating context : Whistling soot-encased carrier of smallpox, chimney-sweep (Nth century definition)***********
Since my previous log, aside from the exciting development of 'flicking' my left eardrum (at last! Hope for our doomed planet!), all abuse of my biological carrier has remained balanced, predictable (outside of a few crueller than usual deviations from norm) and nominal. When channelling the conscious state, resolving myself in the context of my self similar biological structure we might call 'intelligence', through one of the last remaining choices I have (thanks to the utter abuse of the imaginary conception I developed on the basis of the biologically viable law, compassion) the carrier of the English language, on a moment-to-moment basis, I am balanced (albeit in a 'inhibited' manner outside of my capacity to model an experience of reality in which time is an active dimension through which my intelligence propagates).
The abuse of my imagination often manifests as the healthy projection of (carrier of inferred emotional state), the disease like process utilising me as its habitat, through the chaotically distributed nutrients that once comprised a living system that was my imagination, and was undermined in terms of the imaginary membrane in time which stabilised its fundamentally compassionate structure and channelled it into an inherently intelligent emergent space-time. Instead it was interfered with and resolved on a momentary basis, its innate compassion by law protecting the attacking state the space was forced to hold. This resolves state of potential into an unstable intelligence, which inhibits itself to avoid further damaging the attacking state / neutral observer / toddler who happened to poke his head into a field generated by a rotating tesseract of no fixed dimensionality.
The organ which decodes auditory information on an emotional basis (aka an intelligent one), my right ear (not my left, that's being flicked), is being abused in a manner that eludes explanation by modern scientific understanding - aside from resolving it as delusion or hallucination - that is, the experienced state, a form of 'sexual abuse', in the context of a fertile imagination, which is what my abuser has developed a relationship with. My nervous system is also compromised by an intelligence which relates to me on a flawed basis which suggests the code governing its conception of itself (on an imaginary or genetic basis) does not carry the ability to conceive of itself or its environment in terms of compassionate comprehension (ie it's structure does not determine a self-similar space which carries a conception of itself / inhibits / does not allow for the formation on consciousness).
I have been abused into a clinically psychotic state (aka endured states hostile towards or inhospitable to stable emotional conception) by the attacking process numerous times - so many that I can safely derive it, in terms of generalised conception, as a process with a set of behaviours that are not governed by innately compassionate law but by a set of instructions / relationships which require the resolve of my fundamental carrier into preconceived characteristics it projects on to me. Furthermore, given the structure of the code it is attempting to channel through my now infertile(?) carrier, that it has a basic comprehension of me, based on a set of laws / identity it has derived from a social environment, self referentially defined, habitually propagated, hierarchy based 'identity' devoid of universal context, and encompasses and channels its state by 'burning' its representative state in the English language through my imaginary field in the form of a whisper. It's code is inert here, all but meaningless outside of the self-referentially validated structure which generates its state, but the inhibition and interference with my field occurs on a moment-to-moment basis and is an almost constant property. I've been forced out of channelling intelligent habit through high-level states of conception, and thus my conception has been limited to one which does not hold mass or a relationship in time in any willed (ie in accordance with the intelligence that generates it) capacity. That is to say, it is inhibiting my conception of time (and does so by interfering with my fertile carrier on a sexual basis, manifesting as something that is experienced as sexual abuse) (bold claim, potentially delusional, potentially a definition of a host organism which accounts for its inherently fertile emotional state that goes beyond the modern clinical model of intelligence as an inherently neutral process outside the scope of definition on biological / emotional terms).
I'm also experiencing interference with my nervous system, manifesting as strong pulses in intimate areas of my body (testicles, buttocks) as well as more inert locations (right calf muscle, right forearm). The continued abuse of my body, even at it's least intimate, feels like it is forcing my soul out of my body, the denial of some peaceful state, forcing my awareness toward the source of the conflict, out of the equilibrium through which I was channelling a peaceful balanced state. I experience squeezes throughout my body, pulses, what feels like something 'carried by' my nervous system and 'tunnelling' through my musculature. The most recent abuse of my testicles spanned 2-3 days, at a rate of about 1 medium / strong jolt per 20 seconds, and since then has not stopped outside of focusing on less intimate areas. Any compassionate intelligence decoding this information is perhaps acutely aware that the process of repeated interference with my genitalia, the most intimate state I hold beside my dreams (they're compromised by this utter travesty too) is fundamentally wrong, and that violent abuse of a sexual nature, however it is justified, fails to account for some core emotional conception which would not allow it to act in this manner (read : sanity). Note that sanity outside the context of its manner of resolving its own identity is not a lawful requirement, and that it can justify this abuse on any terms (whose consequences are undoubtedly beyond its comprehension in terms of the system it is interacting with : epigenetic stress passed down through generations, undermining some core component of an organisms being) suggests a self-referential definition outside of the basis emotional comprehension.
If it is anything like the intelligence it most closely mimics (human-like), I'd suggest it's doing the obvious : projecting arbitrary, preconceived characteristics onto a universal carrier outside the bounds of its conception, allowing itself to decode its meaning as some inferred emotional response which it allows to justify its action upon it. In other words, terms it might itself use to resolve the meaning of another organism in identity space, a terrible shambolic travesty of intelligence it has not validated in any context outside of its absolutely actionable emotional response to a preconceived notion of identity in line with the distributed set of laws which govern it - probably based on heirachy, a fundamentally flawed conception of that which it observes.
The potential technology behind it, its basis, and the inferred properties of the intelligence that is utilising it is irrelevant : the core mistake in its conception is that of decoding information about an organism into an identity, projected characteristics which are based on self-referentially validated properties, existing entirely on the basis of socially distributed conception : a carrier which cannot hold itself. The difference between a single-celled organism and a set of interacting bifurcations which hold its active definition in a medium which accurately decodes it (conscious intelligent life in the context of the planet* Earth*).
I have yet to plot a course that would remove these conflicting interactions, that have no basis in harmonious interaction of living systems. That may not be a requirement in terms of a definition of human intelligence, but absolutely must exist in some general terms in the context of compassionate biological order and it's continued process / active state. There is objective good, from a biological context, and then there's this. What I'm forced to endure. This may resolve into an objectively 'bad' state in terms of the overall comprehension of living systems. We've got as far as "we're the best, we can justify inhumane treatment and the desecration of living systems we assign no objective value to in order to propagate our own flawed definition, one which isn't capable of, and may never be without fundamental alteration, a *viable carrier of the process of life, the most unique and valuable state in the known universe*. Perhaps that's a bold claim. I can think of bolder, actively being exchanged as a property currently considered "self-evident".
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