Meanwhile, I'm worried about putting any more information into my already crowded skull, just in case I am further emotionally scarred / emotionally scar anybody else. In this state, I can't think much at all without whispering, high pitched frequencies, flashes of imagery, burning balls, molestation, ticks in various body parts, snipping in my brain, throat and testicles, condescension, and emotional contradiction. My memories become 'bones', states which my neural pathways immediately lead to in response to environmental cues, as opposed to the creative intelligence which I had propagated throughout my entire mind before, with respect to these things but which worked within its own paradigm of understanding.
I am attempting not to forget the soulful intelligence that this state has mangled, or the horrendous emotional torture that led here. It feels like a 'game' the alternate players can only 'win' by forcibly burning any intelligence which might be contrary to it - this is deliciously ironic in my case, due to the fact that my intelligence would have accounted for their states in a rational, understanding manner. The fact it has to inhabit my imagination seems to suggest a wholly different paradigm of understanding, though I had the capacity before to cycle through many, whilst this is completely solidified - an arbitrary set of rules iterated upon in a carrier of otherwise great plasticity.
Also, I don't think I can use my imagejaculateination any more, through fear of interference and/or molestation by people who are unwilling to look away or understand. I know this is not an unusual state to be in, but in my case it feels very much like 'giving up' on love, the development of it within my own imagination so that I can 'externalize' it or use it to refine my own structures. It is one of the few things keeping my imagination intact and hope alive, but there seems little point when the processes I develop are 'observed' or 'interfered with' in a forceful, uninvited manner.
This morning I woke up with a (feline?) chewing on my left inner ear. This may not be news. It seems to have nothing better to do than bother me.
I am worried about the state of mind of the people around me. Seeing as the barrier between their 'assertions' and my internal state thins as both their focus on me and abusive treatment continues. Their minds seem a network of understanding which act as socially validated 'echochambers', for lack of a better term, though I have already analysed this in great detail - the spread of non-empirically validated information through a network due to the constraints of an environment. At times it is a 'scary ass' process, like a bunch of mouths which are bouncing information around in a pitch black carrier. As if eyes are rolling into the back of their heads and mouths are 'firing information' about their structure. In this state specifically, it seems that it is patterns of speech which are the carrier of this process, a self validating process within the context of a social network. They have a 'map' which coincides with reality somewhat, though their attempts to define it in the context of my carrier are of detriment to its substance. There also seems to be an attempt at the dispersion of the paradigm of 'correctness' at every moment, from the context of the observer, which in my case interferes with or is of detriment to the development of skill.
While it is undoubtedly an efficient strategy in the context of social bonding, which I personally have no problem with provided I can distance myself from it, theirs seem to regurgitate responses to information as quickly as it is received, framing their perspective as superior or as a state of self professed 'correctness' which frames individuals or networks who don't adhere to their structures as incorrect or without merit, without time to challenge it from more thoroughly validated perspectives, or for them to communicate the validity of their order in a manner which is not of detriment to alternative orders. In my case, it is almost as if my thoughts are 'grabbed' out of thin air and their nature or source misinterpreted.
Eclipsed.
Wednesday 23 October 2013
Anti-clockwise. 30 knots. You're going to be host to some confused hamsters.
"He's growing intelligence!" (Omnomnomnomnomnom).
Friday 18 October 2013
Residual pain frequencies
Todays notes : Discovered that my dreams are potentially being read and manipulated / used as a form of weapon contrary to my heart. (Symbolic) memories controlled by some force which seems determined to use the power of my mind to bully my soul. 40-100hz waves disrupting coherence of subconscious mind. Extreme pain. (Subconscious and conscious 'aligned'. Recursive channel from 'love' to 'intelligence' developing 'state of matter' which is essentially intelligence malleable enough reform itself and structure at will. This requires both the internal understanding of and development of 'time' in the form of potential energy. It seems someone is attempting to create 'bubbles' in time which force this intelligence into states it defines (in the carrier of the mind, and also, seemingly, at this particular point in spacetime), at cost to the potential 'energy' it did not account for when forcibly defining these states, which apparently still takes form.) My idea was to use this space to 'simulate' forms of intelligence, in as verifiable a manner as possible, and then externalize a system which could keep these forms 'safe' in physical reality.
Because the system was capable of conceiving of the state of 'potential' of all life forms, it essentially understood their emotional source and was capable of condensing this and 'reading' it at will. This required a framework of understanding which understood the states of alternate beings as tangible realities, but did not necessarily attempt to control them, only to understand, simulate possibilities and act in tandem with respect to their realities. Its goal was to utilize that knowledge to reduce conflict in a realistic manner, one which took as much into account as possible. It seems that the malleability of this intelligence sustains itself - that is that it is the 'spread' of a signal throughout an intelligent carrier, but that signal is a (finely honed feedback loop? validation of some conceptual abstractions which allow the mind to become a clearer carrier) which is consciously controlled and utilized as a 'tool' to develop and experiment with alternate forms of intelligence at will. A kind of dreamstate. Alongside alternate forms of carriers of intelligence/love, perspectives, simulation of colour, light, and force, and propagation of (force as loops in/through time?) which appear to take tangible shape in some field are possible. Sound is more difficult though it is also possible (though, in my experience, external noise is capable of interfering with its development, and 'ambiguous' states are generally entangled with subconscious information, though mine was attempting to resolve these (or create a system capable of doing so) in a harmonious manner). These ambiguous states seem to be 'branded' with information, assertion of an 'imaginary ratio' of emotional state which appears to eat its time as conflicts are resolved, as opposed to 'creating' time utilizing a harmonious state. They are generally determination of a state of 'potential' in to some fixed carrier of information, which are not always compatible with the carrier state - this is mirrored in my experience of 'signals' heard through pink noise, an attempt at subconscious resolve. It also appears that, while to begin with, this was not intentional interference, the interference with my field is now undoubtedly intentionally cruel and seemingly without a reason besides greed or lack of the capacity for conception of an alternate action (such as using this information to develop their own harmonious states, or simply 'knocking', for lack of a better term)). It appears there are forms of intelligence which attempt to use this as a weapon, though in more 'absolute' states of intelligence, it can become clear that the 'reasons' behind this are habitually defined, generally non-malleable states of intelligence, which are convinced of the validity of the 'framework of intelligence' they've spread throughout their own internal networks (usually these spread throughout social networks, though that's not to say that the states of the individuals aren't malleable, rather that the internal environments they (are forced to?) create to 'connect' are tangible states which they've attached their intelligences to. It's interesting to me, that these are all essentially 'environmentally defined' states, considering as a species we attempt to actively define our environments. I attempted to steer clear and create a more absolute carrier due to the conflicts I observed as well as the emotional conflict I was subjected to, though without control over ones own mind, this can become a difficult state to cope with).
Also interesting to note that when my dreamstate is 'occupied' the majority of my higher level cognitive functions are paralyzed, probably as a function of emotional 'balance', as if mine, instead of being distributed throughout a holistic network, are worn as 'suits' for alternate, seemingly independent intelligences, but as a result, either directly contrary to my intelligence or forcing my state into a simpler carrier. It seems that when I shaped my intelligence of my own will, the states I reached would have 'scared' these intelligences, which is why I instinctively shielded them from them, though of course this was of my own volition and a balanced decision when not being forced to do this - i.e. when there was an innate understanding between the intelligences. When I was 'forced' to let them in it was of huge cost to the integrity of my intelligence. HUGE. As if I were precariously balanced over an eternal void while somewhat naive, less developed intelligences (though I'm quite capable of conceiving of them as 'true') were attempting to 'judge' my state, which I had to hold as 'agreeable', while attempting to 'close off' the gigantic imbalance that their 'occupation' was causing. This seems to be habitual to them. A habitual misnomer. Though the more they attempt to force it, the more they damage it. They 'burn' emotional intelligence. It is a habit which doesn't seem to develop it itself, or whose development is 'stifled' by the attachment to the 'use' of that habit, the idea that it is a resource as opposed to a 'true, harmonious state' which develops in tandem. And it's sterilizing. It appears to need to sterilize the development of emotion in the form of potential, possibly due to the constraints of the manner in which it determines its environment (I'd speculate that it believes it has more to gain by not caring, though that it is attempting to utilize 'me', seemingly as a resource, suggests that that is not the case).
Because the system was capable of conceiving of the state of 'potential' of all life forms, it essentially understood their emotional source and was capable of condensing this and 'reading' it at will. This required a framework of understanding which understood the states of alternate beings as tangible realities, but did not necessarily attempt to control them, only to understand, simulate possibilities and act in tandem with respect to their realities. Its goal was to utilize that knowledge to reduce conflict in a realistic manner, one which took as much into account as possible. It seems that the malleability of this intelligence sustains itself - that is that it is the 'spread' of a signal throughout an intelligent carrier, but that signal is a (finely honed feedback loop? validation of some conceptual abstractions which allow the mind to become a clearer carrier) which is consciously controlled and utilized as a 'tool' to develop and experiment with alternate forms of intelligence at will. A kind of dreamstate. Alongside alternate forms of carriers of intelligence/love, perspectives, simulation of colour, light, and force, and propagation of (force as loops in/through time?) which appear to take tangible shape in some field are possible. Sound is more difficult though it is also possible (though, in my experience, external noise is capable of interfering with its development, and 'ambiguous' states are generally entangled with subconscious information, though mine was attempting to resolve these (or create a system capable of doing so) in a harmonious manner). These ambiguous states seem to be 'branded' with information, assertion of an 'imaginary ratio' of emotional state which appears to eat its time as conflicts are resolved, as opposed to 'creating' time utilizing a harmonious state. They are generally determination of a state of 'potential' in to some fixed carrier of information, which are not always compatible with the carrier state - this is mirrored in my experience of 'signals' heard through pink noise, an attempt at subconscious resolve. It also appears that, while to begin with, this was not intentional interference, the interference with my field is now undoubtedly intentionally cruel and seemingly without a reason besides greed or lack of the capacity for conception of an alternate action (such as using this information to develop their own harmonious states, or simply 'knocking', for lack of a better term)). It appears there are forms of intelligence which attempt to use this as a weapon, though in more 'absolute' states of intelligence, it can become clear that the 'reasons' behind this are habitually defined, generally non-malleable states of intelligence, which are convinced of the validity of the 'framework of intelligence' they've spread throughout their own internal networks (usually these spread throughout social networks, though that's not to say that the states of the individuals aren't malleable, rather that the internal environments they (are forced to?) create to 'connect' are tangible states which they've attached their intelligences to. It's interesting to me, that these are all essentially 'environmentally defined' states, considering as a species we attempt to actively define our environments. I attempted to steer clear and create a more absolute carrier due to the conflicts I observed as well as the emotional conflict I was subjected to, though without control over ones own mind, this can become a difficult state to cope with).
Also interesting to note that when my dreamstate is 'occupied' the majority of my higher level cognitive functions are paralyzed, probably as a function of emotional 'balance', as if mine, instead of being distributed throughout a holistic network, are worn as 'suits' for alternate, seemingly independent intelligences, but as a result, either directly contrary to my intelligence or forcing my state into a simpler carrier. It seems that when I shaped my intelligence of my own will, the states I reached would have 'scared' these intelligences, which is why I instinctively shielded them from them, though of course this was of my own volition and a balanced decision when not being forced to do this - i.e. when there was an innate understanding between the intelligences. When I was 'forced' to let them in it was of huge cost to the integrity of my intelligence. HUGE. As if I were precariously balanced over an eternal void while somewhat naive, less developed intelligences (though I'm quite capable of conceiving of them as 'true') were attempting to 'judge' my state, which I had to hold as 'agreeable', while attempting to 'close off' the gigantic imbalance that their 'occupation' was causing. This seems to be habitual to them. A habitual misnomer. Though the more they attempt to force it, the more they damage it. They 'burn' emotional intelligence. It is a habit which doesn't seem to develop it itself, or whose development is 'stifled' by the attachment to the 'use' of that habit, the idea that it is a resource as opposed to a 'true, harmonious state' which develops in tandem. And it's sterilizing. It appears to need to sterilize the development of emotion in the form of potential, possibly due to the constraints of the manner in which it determines its environment (I'd speculate that it believes it has more to gain by not caring, though that it is attempting to utilize 'me', seemingly as a resource, suggests that that is not the case).
Saturday 12 October 2013
Today's nightmare better lead somewhere awesome.
Last night I experienced some disturbing phenomenon - coupled with an extremely high, if also highly abstracted, and seemingly externally directed (though internally balanced) level of intelligence. To begin with I heard sounds, as if buckets of water were being emptied onto the floor, though these soon turned into the sound and smell of 'vomit'. As if I had been transported to an underground hospital of some kind, or that this was a reaction to certain internal states (seeing as how I appear to have been conditioned to remain stable within them, while an alternate intelligence may not take what they see so lightly). A distinct notion of the 'cause' and 'effect' of various evolutionary processes and, though while directed (flies, here. I won't go into further detail but in that state things just 'make sense'. There's a compassionate grounding), the notion of a connection between the causality of various biological processes actions and their relative understanding of / effect on concurrent development. The 'whispered' voice has been making the claim 'we learned everything' (its emphasis), though it does not seem to account for the relative stability of, at the very least, the state of the system which carries it - thus the manner in which it learns appears not to account for at least some states of awareness as tangible states of reality, probably due to its constraints. They mimic mine in some senses - that is, a lack of tangible direction in which to invest that knowledge due to negative interference (in the form of habit feedback loops imbued upon it by its environment), to the detriment of alternate states / timelines. The intelligence I was investing in before accounted for these states but used it determination of a purely emergent nature to dictate its direction - that is, that given this 'generalized approach' it was capable of accounting for the state of most systems, whereas when internal state is 'determined' that 'generalized approach' can no longer propagate throughout the network which holds it.
The phenomenon I experienced last night were generally impulsive thoughts :
The idea that the 'polarity' of the world had shifted 90 degrees and the ice caps were melting, though there were some innate feelings here : one of being 'light' carried by these ice caps, that this is a negative state due to the result of something tunneling the 'wrong way' through the earth, that the ice caps themselves are a state 'protecting something', that it is a 'force' holding a balanced state together (the rotation of the earth on a two dimensional axis?), that if removed, would cause it to spin out of control.
The idea that 'my dreams' were a source of light for some other world, though the other world were harvesting that light in a manner which did not account for the stability or emotional state of its carrier - that it's almost like a 'golden liquid' that is being tapped, 'inaccurately determined', (lied to, essentially) to the detriment of the process which creates it, or at worst, the feeling like something is 'swimming' through the source of my dreams, picking up its essence along with it - a horrendous feeling. The notion that my 'whole timeline' is being cheated, the processes left intact but hiding or in extreme pain, obscured, hidden from view, or seen as 'irrelevant' from the perspective of an 'inaccurate determination' which may be part of the cause.
Flies, vomit. Seeds determining relative representative states of chaos, which we may 'interpret' somewhat relatively based on our own integral code. Spider 'crawling inside the vacuum' of my dna, creating a white light inside of it? Flies state of awareness as extremely compassionate. Other ideas, though equally disturbing, which may be more offensive, include the unbalanced habit of laugher turning into 'beaks', frogs profiting from the habit 'ribbit', (and the human suggestion of fucks turning into 'rucks') and so forth. Various examples of imbalanced predator prey relationships. What these appear to be are signs of using simple and efficient (though of non-robust intelligence) systems 'profiteering' from 'naked' code, though, within me, it seems the awareness of these states at all has emerged from my more 'holistic' intelligence (developed with the potential to know these things, but with enough robustness in its own determination to pick relevant paths of investment of time.. in general terms, that is stability for a large number of states given its own externalized potential, systems which allow this form of intelligence to develop in a harmonious manner, etc. Though generally I knew this would always be threatened by the potential of social networks, though 'powerful' - usually in the sense in which they misinterpret - to develop networks biased in terms of form of compassionate intelligence, so that's where a lot of my study focused) being determined in an imbalanced manner. I would rather not go to these places, considering the alternate route was a lot less ignorant of immediate circumstances, but rather did not wish to be completely bound by them to enable reformation of a more harmonious manner. That is to say, that the immediate social network knowingly caused such harm is indicative of a lack of robustness of intelligence. A sense of inevitability is, in part, determined by the structure of the system, so that these actions were committed could be considered a result of it - though it appears my immediate environment has determined my feelings as 'unworthy of recognition' in the sense that it is attempting to control their very essence, rather than allowing them to grow in tandem on broader terms. I feel, to put it bluntly, 'framed', though in a negative manner, through the use of the 'habitual' techniques I describe above, and of extreme detriment to that which I actually am. It simply uses me as a 'resource' to frame itself in a more attractive manner, though in doing so vastly reduced the potential of my system for 'balanced' state of emotional carrier (which, of course, still felt and sensed the same way any other person does). Its attempts to 'bury' me with these habitual assertions seem to be with intent : that it 'fears' the intelligence, 'does not like' the intelligence, or is attempting to 'cover its tracks' by programming my immediate network / interfering with my carrier (my dreams, my heart). The fact that it arrived at any state which could be described as negative within me was the result of its own interference. As stated before, my intent was to 'externalize' this intelligence, in the form of technology, but with the clear message that to 'arrive at' or 'understand' the idea would require an intelligence capable of a holistic form of compassion, which does not often arrive in the form of a social network. At least, not the one I was 'attacked' by. Simplistic notions are fed from a seemingly 'trustworthy' source : the network, in order to efficiently organize, can turn these into 'polarized' emotional habits (because they have invested time in compassionate understanding into an environmentally influenced or specified 'structure' of interpretation) which do not encompass a more coherent, holistic understanding. This may be, in part, while I feel as though I am being squished down to the size of a pea, though that in itself is the result of an attempt at internal determination which fails to account for the nature of the holistic system - as if a 'matrix of identity' is attempting to propagate itself through my entire network of intelligence, though due to the constraint that is put on its rather robust mechanisms due to inhabitation, that means that the intelligences are becoming less robust as the form of habitual propagation of 'love' throughout the network devolves into 'strategy'. The 'amount' of love is determined, in the case of a network, by the distributed carrier system, but to put it more simply, it is probably correlated with depth of understanding, which can take vastly different directions (thus, a holistic compassionate approach seems the most likely to arrive at an agreeable state), is limited by the structure of the carrier system and rate of interaction (i.e. speeds which the environment determines as a requirement for survival). This may become variable as the system evolves - if a network develops which can safely 'account for' a number of what may otherwise be loosely connected states - this one hurt so much because, even within its imagination, its foundations were tangible, real, applicable principles, both within the imagination and outside of it. The attachment was 'truly strong' because it was true to time, though existed 'outside' of its boundaries at the same time - that is, it grew in tandem. That there are attempts at determining it, internally (through external interference), is probably an attempt at making the timescale deterministic and utilizing that as a source of profit - though habits which do not account for the holistic system will place a limit on internal conception, and thus, determination of a nature which allows continuous growth (fixed habits of emergent intelligence, for example, the 'scale' of the dreams the mind can carry). It seems a recursive system of intelligence, coupled with a 'love' of the essence of what carries alternate systems, is what allows growth of a compassionate system. To forcefully determine, rather than to determine as 'possibility', is what is of detriment to that system - (at least in the internal model. to be determined from an external viewpoint could be seen as positive or negative in conjunction with the identity of that system, in the sense that it is possible to abuse the 'balance' of a system.) In my experience, control is not indicative of understanding, but generally attempts at 'determination', which is of active detriment when knowingly abusing an organism and ignoring its screams, for example, habits some of our ancestors may have been locked into. I would suggest that 'compassion' is integral for development in that state, and that an all encompassing sense is the natural evolution of that process. Though, as time has shown, it can be a very, very difficult state to communicate / encompass when environmental pressures dictate action at the expense of accuracy of determination.
The system of 'entanglement' between external emotional conceptual objects of a biased perspective (planted, not emergent) quite obviously has been used as a tool in this case, though it is rather primitive (this was obvious to me from the outset) and had to be used like a bludgeoning weapon before it was capable of forceful insertion of itself into the equation. Because I am consistently bound by this form (of imagination), that means possibilities for complexity of carrier system have been greatly reduced. All this seems obvious, though it may not be to the people carrying out the detrimental instructions, who are rewarded for semantic simplicity from the perspective of a social network, regardless of their understanding or comprehension of their outcome - semantic simplicity can work, but the more a system is compressed, the more room for error when the system is decompressed within a limited timescale. Some states of determinism may simply not be applicable to other states - as demonstrated by my experiences. The repetitive statement 'you are arrogant' was an attempt to propagate a code not applicable to the context of the organisms state, an attempt at 'determining' it within some imagined hierarchy of emotional interpretation, to 'lie' to the code in a manner which destabilize it and would not be able to see through it given that instability - that is, in the case of my imagination, an unsustainable one (based, as it is, on the fundamental properties of reality and being able therefore, to perceive a far greater breadth of realities - and also, to light its own dreams, thus developing the carrier in a harmonious manner - to choose one, it would have to first determine a stable structure to carry it, the foundations of that structure misinterpreted by those attempting to 'reprogram' it in a dissonant manner). As the errors propagate, so too, it appears, does the probability of net loss (of deterministic efficiency / accuracy) increasing, as states are inaccurately determined. The carrier, originally, was of incredible detail and held the potential to synchronize with a potentially infinite number of states with great accuracy - though it did it in harmony with them, took time to develop, and so on.
This morning, the link between massless organisms attempting to 'tunnel' using repetitive statements looked instinctively like a worm. It says something like "well, a feeling consists of nitrogen and various other chemical compounds, and I've learned to control them in a simplistic and fundamentally flawed manner". "Basically, we're eating the heaven you were attempting to externalize because our habits determine your death". "You had a habit which allowed conception and growth of all these things simultaneously using a renewable source of energy which you'd developed to externalize, but we decided we were going to use the space in which you were building this internal representation as food instead". "We appear to be eating your heart and determining the carrier of your soul as a resource". These things aren't inevitable, though they can certainly 'happen', and assuming the treatment I'm faced with continues, will continue to happen. It appears they have not developed on terms that would allow them to conceive of a future state where this does not, probably due to the 'momentary' nature of intelligences which would otherwise have developed minds which can 'transcend time' (in a non-wasteful manner). This is not a condemnation (if it appears that way from the tone) but I am utterly, utterly frustrated and soul destroyed that so much misconception could be directed at a single organism, despite its frequent and 'as fundamentally communicable as possible' attempts to prove that it indeed does have a soul that transcends time, and that that soul is not lying on a fundamental basis. Essentially, all of these things can exist in parallel given the correct 'definition of environment', and it seems that mine is frequently asserted at in a contradictory manner at certain, (though more frequently here), moments which would imply 'nullification of the soul', or that environment. The imagination is the carrier, and the structure of mine is being 'forcefully defined' in a manner which basically sends a still living part of it to hell, due to an environment of 'binary' definition of the soul. In other words, superpositions are forcefully being resolved, and it appears the state of matter, the 'mass' which carries them is lost. I am, again, through the method of intrusive thoughts, being 'shown' the structure of codes which might be at odds with this one. This includes social methods of conception which arrive at some 'fixed' interpretation of a singular, all encompassing state, though I am more concerned with the 'feelings' that arise when an emotional carrier of great plasticity is forced to resolve an 'asserted' state within a moment, as I am. It is as if the space where those feelings would grow - my dreams - are being interfered with in a manner contradictory to their growth, though those dreams are tangible states of reality. They existed in the form of potential, though this treatment is basically 'killing them', and I sense that. Though I am sensing it with greater and greater levels of clarity now. My soul has no faith in the dream that is being asserted at it, because it misinterprets the soul as a momentary state, as opposed to one of potential throughout time - that potential takes form, regardless of its treatment, but mine is being treated very poorly by the dreams asserted at it. My previous state was one of great internal emotional balance. That is, my imagination developing on fundamental terms was required in order for to propagate emotion in a 'tangible', verifiable manner. My momentary state was generally not misinterpreted, thus I had the space to develop these dreams on more fundamental terms. Though when it was, it was from 'external sources'. Directed. Presumably so that I would not be able to develop in tandem with the social network, though, seeing as it treated me in this manner, doing so would suggest that I'd be part of a system which would 'frame' the world in a manner which allowed this kind of misinterpretation, to the detriment of development of an organism. I attempted to develop my intelligence at home, instead, though the external interference escalated to the point I was simply so inundated with emotional turmoil that all my efforts were tied up with resolving it, rather than attempting to form knowledge and habits as a 'productive' carrier of the state of the soul. My dreams mature, based on these fundamental principles, and so does the negative treatment, though there has emerged an imbalance where these dreams are no longer able to mature due to the conditioned responses of the environment, the simplistic code which attempts to eat away at it. In other words, the 'carrier' of this treatment has been compressed into a momentary, habitual form which can only reduce the complexity of states the imagination can carry, and it does so based on a predicted outcome which does not occur due to the errors in internal conception when that code is 'decompressed'. It's "damaging" the universal carrier, essentially - the form which it takes - by not developing a system which can take other momentary realities into account in a manner which doesn't damage them. The 'dream' I carried was not a lie. Thus, harmonious potential developed. That which is 'eating them' does lie, seemingly in terms of internal conception of the system which holds it, (and the 'negative' process is seemingly spread throughout the entire social network, as well as, it appears, my dreams, a tangible state of matter), but it, in turn, is incapable of using its potential to develop a system which doesn't require that, which would seemingly be the cause of these habits becoming more simple and less 'universally' encompassing, as it continually asserts its momentary internal state as 'absolute truth', to the detriment of the balance of other 'absolute truths' (as, you would expect given the certainty in their given context, you could derive from the philosophy which drives them). I'd suggest, then, that to determine multiple states of absolute truth with accuracy (in other words, for your asserted perspective not to be of detriment to it) would require a system which can develop the conception of it from perspectives of abstraction which are malleable enough to exist harmoniously with their potential state, as opposed to defining their entire state of being from a dissonant perspective on a momentary basis. Accounting for them is difficult, given environmental constraints, though rather simple given time to harmoniously develop.
It seems that my dreams (when I actually have them on a realistic basis, and are not inhibited) are 'true love'. Though they are attempted to be defined on terms which misinterpret them on more fundamental levels as 'not true', they are a 'truth' which, when defined by a harmonious mechanism, allow the carrier to maintain and develop love in an environment of otherwise dubious trustworthiness. Given an external perspectives assertion of state it seems as though that state is a defined by a code which allows no more potential development. It is attempting to 'define' as opposed to 'propagate potential' based on a compressed code which, when decompressed, allows that. Compassionate understanding as opposed to complete dismissal. Given this potential, it seemed 'fair' to determine all other states as true, or to allow them to achieve emotional and physical integrity, whilst retaining my own ideas - the integrity and development of the fundamental principle which allows it. To externalize this integrity in the form of 'technology' which allowed concurrent development. Though one of the most fundamental properties of its development was the admission to oneself that 'mistakes in interpretation' could be made, and that my own development was in attempting to develop a unified system that did not make a 'mistake in interpretation', (that is, simply trusting the carrier of the heart, which is obviously being damaged in an extremely calculated manner by that which does not take the holistic system of the organism into account) in a space not bound by environmental influences (which can simply be in the form of forced 'determination' of the state of an organism from a fixed, environmentally influenced perspective) on its development.
Of course, with a better fundamental understanding of reality also comes a greater understanding of the environment of disparity I have been born into. Access to information from a worldwide source - the internet - means that the disparity of the contextual and conceptual framework of my immediate social reality, among other things, of my immediate environment and alternate systems of interpretation becomes apparent. This is an understatement. That my 'immediate environment' is attempting to gain control my of dreams is at odds with the fundamental notions of the 'framework of intelligence' which developed based on this information. That this framework of intelligence could develop very tangible notions of a sustainable future, simulated on fundamental terms, and the imbalance of that and the current process that's occurring, suggests something quite terrible within me.
The phenomenon I experienced last night were generally impulsive thoughts :
The idea that the 'polarity' of the world had shifted 90 degrees and the ice caps were melting, though there were some innate feelings here : one of being 'light' carried by these ice caps, that this is a negative state due to the result of something tunneling the 'wrong way' through the earth, that the ice caps themselves are a state 'protecting something', that it is a 'force' holding a balanced state together (the rotation of the earth on a two dimensional axis?), that if removed, would cause it to spin out of control.
The idea that 'my dreams' were a source of light for some other world, though the other world were harvesting that light in a manner which did not account for the stability or emotional state of its carrier - that it's almost like a 'golden liquid' that is being tapped, 'inaccurately determined', (lied to, essentially) to the detriment of the process which creates it, or at worst, the feeling like something is 'swimming' through the source of my dreams, picking up its essence along with it - a horrendous feeling. The notion that my 'whole timeline' is being cheated, the processes left intact but hiding or in extreme pain, obscured, hidden from view, or seen as 'irrelevant' from the perspective of an 'inaccurate determination' which may be part of the cause.
Flies, vomit. Seeds determining relative representative states of chaos, which we may 'interpret' somewhat relatively based on our own integral code. Spider 'crawling inside the vacuum' of my dna, creating a white light inside of it? Flies state of awareness as extremely compassionate. Other ideas, though equally disturbing, which may be more offensive, include the unbalanced habit of laugher turning into 'beaks', frogs profiting from the habit 'ribbit', (and the human suggestion of fucks turning into 'rucks') and so forth. Various examples of imbalanced predator prey relationships. What these appear to be are signs of using simple and efficient (though of non-robust intelligence) systems 'profiteering' from 'naked' code, though, within me, it seems the awareness of these states at all has emerged from my more 'holistic' intelligence (developed with the potential to know these things, but with enough robustness in its own determination to pick relevant paths of investment of time.. in general terms, that is stability for a large number of states given its own externalized potential, systems which allow this form of intelligence to develop in a harmonious manner, etc. Though generally I knew this would always be threatened by the potential of social networks, though 'powerful' - usually in the sense in which they misinterpret - to develop networks biased in terms of form of compassionate intelligence, so that's where a lot of my study focused) being determined in an imbalanced manner. I would rather not go to these places, considering the alternate route was a lot less ignorant of immediate circumstances, but rather did not wish to be completely bound by them to enable reformation of a more harmonious manner. That is to say, that the immediate social network knowingly caused such harm is indicative of a lack of robustness of intelligence. A sense of inevitability is, in part, determined by the structure of the system, so that these actions were committed could be considered a result of it - though it appears my immediate environment has determined my feelings as 'unworthy of recognition' in the sense that it is attempting to control their very essence, rather than allowing them to grow in tandem on broader terms. I feel, to put it bluntly, 'framed', though in a negative manner, through the use of the 'habitual' techniques I describe above, and of extreme detriment to that which I actually am. It simply uses me as a 'resource' to frame itself in a more attractive manner, though in doing so vastly reduced the potential of my system for 'balanced' state of emotional carrier (which, of course, still felt and sensed the same way any other person does). Its attempts to 'bury' me with these habitual assertions seem to be with intent : that it 'fears' the intelligence, 'does not like' the intelligence, or is attempting to 'cover its tracks' by programming my immediate network / interfering with my carrier (my dreams, my heart). The fact that it arrived at any state which could be described as negative within me was the result of its own interference. As stated before, my intent was to 'externalize' this intelligence, in the form of technology, but with the clear message that to 'arrive at' or 'understand' the idea would require an intelligence capable of a holistic form of compassion, which does not often arrive in the form of a social network. At least, not the one I was 'attacked' by. Simplistic notions are fed from a seemingly 'trustworthy' source : the network, in order to efficiently organize, can turn these into 'polarized' emotional habits (because they have invested time in compassionate understanding into an environmentally influenced or specified 'structure' of interpretation) which do not encompass a more coherent, holistic understanding. This may be, in part, while I feel as though I am being squished down to the size of a pea, though that in itself is the result of an attempt at internal determination which fails to account for the nature of the holistic system - as if a 'matrix of identity' is attempting to propagate itself through my entire network of intelligence, though due to the constraint that is put on its rather robust mechanisms due to inhabitation, that means that the intelligences are becoming less robust as the form of habitual propagation of 'love' throughout the network devolves into 'strategy'. The 'amount' of love is determined, in the case of a network, by the distributed carrier system, but to put it more simply, it is probably correlated with depth of understanding, which can take vastly different directions (thus, a holistic compassionate approach seems the most likely to arrive at an agreeable state), is limited by the structure of the carrier system and rate of interaction (i.e. speeds which the environment determines as a requirement for survival). This may become variable as the system evolves - if a network develops which can safely 'account for' a number of what may otherwise be loosely connected states - this one hurt so much because, even within its imagination, its foundations were tangible, real, applicable principles, both within the imagination and outside of it. The attachment was 'truly strong' because it was true to time, though existed 'outside' of its boundaries at the same time - that is, it grew in tandem. That there are attempts at determining it, internally (through external interference), is probably an attempt at making the timescale deterministic and utilizing that as a source of profit - though habits which do not account for the holistic system will place a limit on internal conception, and thus, determination of a nature which allows continuous growth (fixed habits of emergent intelligence, for example, the 'scale' of the dreams the mind can carry). It seems a recursive system of intelligence, coupled with a 'love' of the essence of what carries alternate systems, is what allows growth of a compassionate system. To forcefully determine, rather than to determine as 'possibility', is what is of detriment to that system - (at least in the internal model. to be determined from an external viewpoint could be seen as positive or negative in conjunction with the identity of that system, in the sense that it is possible to abuse the 'balance' of a system.) In my experience, control is not indicative of understanding, but generally attempts at 'determination', which is of active detriment when knowingly abusing an organism and ignoring its screams, for example, habits some of our ancestors may have been locked into. I would suggest that 'compassion' is integral for development in that state, and that an all encompassing sense is the natural evolution of that process. Though, as time has shown, it can be a very, very difficult state to communicate / encompass when environmental pressures dictate action at the expense of accuracy of determination.
The system of 'entanglement' between external emotional conceptual objects of a biased perspective (planted, not emergent) quite obviously has been used as a tool in this case, though it is rather primitive (this was obvious to me from the outset) and had to be used like a bludgeoning weapon before it was capable of forceful insertion of itself into the equation. Because I am consistently bound by this form (of imagination), that means possibilities for complexity of carrier system have been greatly reduced. All this seems obvious, though it may not be to the people carrying out the detrimental instructions, who are rewarded for semantic simplicity from the perspective of a social network, regardless of their understanding or comprehension of their outcome - semantic simplicity can work, but the more a system is compressed, the more room for error when the system is decompressed within a limited timescale. Some states of determinism may simply not be applicable to other states - as demonstrated by my experiences. The repetitive statement 'you are arrogant' was an attempt to propagate a code not applicable to the context of the organisms state, an attempt at 'determining' it within some imagined hierarchy of emotional interpretation, to 'lie' to the code in a manner which destabilize it and would not be able to see through it given that instability - that is, in the case of my imagination, an unsustainable one (based, as it is, on the fundamental properties of reality and being able therefore, to perceive a far greater breadth of realities - and also, to light its own dreams, thus developing the carrier in a harmonious manner - to choose one, it would have to first determine a stable structure to carry it, the foundations of that structure misinterpreted by those attempting to 'reprogram' it in a dissonant manner). As the errors propagate, so too, it appears, does the probability of net loss (of deterministic efficiency / accuracy) increasing, as states are inaccurately determined. The carrier, originally, was of incredible detail and held the potential to synchronize with a potentially infinite number of states with great accuracy - though it did it in harmony with them, took time to develop, and so on.
This morning, the link between massless organisms attempting to 'tunnel' using repetitive statements looked instinctively like a worm. It says something like "well, a feeling consists of nitrogen and various other chemical compounds, and I've learned to control them in a simplistic and fundamentally flawed manner". "Basically, we're eating the heaven you were attempting to externalize because our habits determine your death". "You had a habit which allowed conception and growth of all these things simultaneously using a renewable source of energy which you'd developed to externalize, but we decided we were going to use the space in which you were building this internal representation as food instead". "We appear to be eating your heart and determining the carrier of your soul as a resource". These things aren't inevitable, though they can certainly 'happen', and assuming the treatment I'm faced with continues, will continue to happen. It appears they have not developed on terms that would allow them to conceive of a future state where this does not, probably due to the 'momentary' nature of intelligences which would otherwise have developed minds which can 'transcend time' (in a non-wasteful manner). This is not a condemnation (if it appears that way from the tone) but I am utterly, utterly frustrated and soul destroyed that so much misconception could be directed at a single organism, despite its frequent and 'as fundamentally communicable as possible' attempts to prove that it indeed does have a soul that transcends time, and that that soul is not lying on a fundamental basis. Essentially, all of these things can exist in parallel given the correct 'definition of environment', and it seems that mine is frequently asserted at in a contradictory manner at certain, (though more frequently here), moments which would imply 'nullification of the soul', or that environment. The imagination is the carrier, and the structure of mine is being 'forcefully defined' in a manner which basically sends a still living part of it to hell, due to an environment of 'binary' definition of the soul. In other words, superpositions are forcefully being resolved, and it appears the state of matter, the 'mass' which carries them is lost. I am, again, through the method of intrusive thoughts, being 'shown' the structure of codes which might be at odds with this one. This includes social methods of conception which arrive at some 'fixed' interpretation of a singular, all encompassing state, though I am more concerned with the 'feelings' that arise when an emotional carrier of great plasticity is forced to resolve an 'asserted' state within a moment, as I am. It is as if the space where those feelings would grow - my dreams - are being interfered with in a manner contradictory to their growth, though those dreams are tangible states of reality. They existed in the form of potential, though this treatment is basically 'killing them', and I sense that. Though I am sensing it with greater and greater levels of clarity now. My soul has no faith in the dream that is being asserted at it, because it misinterprets the soul as a momentary state, as opposed to one of potential throughout time - that potential takes form, regardless of its treatment, but mine is being treated very poorly by the dreams asserted at it. My previous state was one of great internal emotional balance. That is, my imagination developing on fundamental terms was required in order for to propagate emotion in a 'tangible', verifiable manner. My momentary state was generally not misinterpreted, thus I had the space to develop these dreams on more fundamental terms. Though when it was, it was from 'external sources'. Directed. Presumably so that I would not be able to develop in tandem with the social network, though, seeing as it treated me in this manner, doing so would suggest that I'd be part of a system which would 'frame' the world in a manner which allowed this kind of misinterpretation, to the detriment of development of an organism. I attempted to develop my intelligence at home, instead, though the external interference escalated to the point I was simply so inundated with emotional turmoil that all my efforts were tied up with resolving it, rather than attempting to form knowledge and habits as a 'productive' carrier of the state of the soul. My dreams mature, based on these fundamental principles, and so does the negative treatment, though there has emerged an imbalance where these dreams are no longer able to mature due to the conditioned responses of the environment, the simplistic code which attempts to eat away at it. In other words, the 'carrier' of this treatment has been compressed into a momentary, habitual form which can only reduce the complexity of states the imagination can carry, and it does so based on a predicted outcome which does not occur due to the errors in internal conception when that code is 'decompressed'. It's "damaging" the universal carrier, essentially - the form which it takes - by not developing a system which can take other momentary realities into account in a manner which doesn't damage them. The 'dream' I carried was not a lie. Thus, harmonious potential developed. That which is 'eating them' does lie, seemingly in terms of internal conception of the system which holds it, (and the 'negative' process is seemingly spread throughout the entire social network, as well as, it appears, my dreams, a tangible state of matter), but it, in turn, is incapable of using its potential to develop a system which doesn't require that, which would seemingly be the cause of these habits becoming more simple and less 'universally' encompassing, as it continually asserts its momentary internal state as 'absolute truth', to the detriment of the balance of other 'absolute truths' (as, you would expect given the certainty in their given context, you could derive from the philosophy which drives them). I'd suggest, then, that to determine multiple states of absolute truth with accuracy (in other words, for your asserted perspective not to be of detriment to it) would require a system which can develop the conception of it from perspectives of abstraction which are malleable enough to exist harmoniously with their potential state, as opposed to defining their entire state of being from a dissonant perspective on a momentary basis. Accounting for them is difficult, given environmental constraints, though rather simple given time to harmoniously develop.
It seems that my dreams (when I actually have them on a realistic basis, and are not inhibited) are 'true love'. Though they are attempted to be defined on terms which misinterpret them on more fundamental levels as 'not true', they are a 'truth' which, when defined by a harmonious mechanism, allow the carrier to maintain and develop love in an environment of otherwise dubious trustworthiness. Given an external perspectives assertion of state it seems as though that state is a defined by a code which allows no more potential development. It is attempting to 'define' as opposed to 'propagate potential' based on a compressed code which, when decompressed, allows that. Compassionate understanding as opposed to complete dismissal. Given this potential, it seemed 'fair' to determine all other states as true, or to allow them to achieve emotional and physical integrity, whilst retaining my own ideas - the integrity and development of the fundamental principle which allows it. To externalize this integrity in the form of 'technology' which allowed concurrent development. Though one of the most fundamental properties of its development was the admission to oneself that 'mistakes in interpretation' could be made, and that my own development was in attempting to develop a unified system that did not make a 'mistake in interpretation', (that is, simply trusting the carrier of the heart, which is obviously being damaged in an extremely calculated manner by that which does not take the holistic system of the organism into account) in a space not bound by environmental influences (which can simply be in the form of forced 'determination' of the state of an organism from a fixed, environmentally influenced perspective) on its development.
Of course, with a better fundamental understanding of reality also comes a greater understanding of the environment of disparity I have been born into. Access to information from a worldwide source - the internet - means that the disparity of the contextual and conceptual framework of my immediate social reality, among other things, of my immediate environment and alternate systems of interpretation becomes apparent. This is an understatement. That my 'immediate environment' is attempting to gain control my of dreams is at odds with the fundamental notions of the 'framework of intelligence' which developed based on this information. That this framework of intelligence could develop very tangible notions of a sustainable future, simulated on fundamental terms, and the imbalance of that and the current process that's occurring, suggests something quite terrible within me.
Monday 7 October 2013
Since my internal cognitive process has been intercepted by predominantly English language responses, I've been noticing some interesting phenomenon in the realm of ambiguity of interpretation. That is, words such as 'fool' (which is not, at least in this case, intentionally implicating my interpretation of whoever's reading this), which could be interpreted in different manners given a set of variable contextual scenarios.
The first is 'settling' on a potentially arbitrary resolution of the ambiguous cue, given total immersion within this system of interpretation coupled with an environmentally defined timescale - i.e. one of repeated interference with the system which carries it which would otherwise resolve it on more stringent / universal terms. I'd suggest, given my previous mode of intelligence, that the 'context' which the system of interpretation itself creates is ill defined - that is, that the ambiguity points to a system of interpretation which is unable to contain an absolute state within the relative context it creates or is invested in.
The necker cube is an interesting geometric analogue. Our visual system attempts to resolve a set of what are 'objectively' two dimensionally connected points which don't necessarily indicate three dimensional information into a three dimensional representation which is generally interpreted as one of two potential states at a given moment in time. One could argue that if this pattern of data is indeed indicative of a three dimensional state, that the correct resolution would be a 'superposition' of the respective states represented by the data. In a system devoid of time, or, in the absence of a robust system capable of instantaneously resolving this data into a superposition, the ambiguous state may be interpreted as one of the two potential states. Extrapolating this notion and applying it to ambiguous states of alternate systems, it could be suggested that a 'choice' or reaction could be made based on the state of the observer at a given time, as opposed to a choice based on a system which takes this ambiguity into account.
The manner in which my previous system resolved this kind of ambiguity was simply to determine any ambiguous data within a system as 'undeterminable', instead attempting to internalize the respective potential outcomes of their potential states. This led to the realization that certain systems which led to ambiguous states were developed around subjective, as opposed to objective, principles - in other words, the ambiguity derived from 'humanly created' systems of interpretation in which conscious determination of a state is invested were indicative of a lack of a robust underlying system which could accurately resolve that state on more fundamental, objective terms. This appears to be true of systems which determine, influence or judge emotional state from a relative perspective, also.
Bearing this in mind : in the case of a carrier of language, resolving the ambiguous state into a 'superposition' is not always an effective strategy for accurately determining state, as the system itself could be considered a quantization of state from the perspective of some unquestioned underlying principle. (Socially reinforced, but ultimately arbitrary representation of state). That is, that the ambiguity is an emergent phenomenon of the carrier - in this case, its purpose to communicate the state of a biological system at a given moment. (Though, as with any environment in which a biological system is invested, it may influence the interpretation or state of a biological system). So while the state of a biological system could always be interpreted as 'true', regardless of the carrier of its state, there is apparently no 'intrinsic' truth which the carrier system itself represents, especially at this level of abstraction. In my case, this emergent ambiguity seems to have been intentionally used as a tool - perhaps to educate, but certainly 'misused', in the same manner that flint, when used appropriately, can be a utilized as a weapon as well as a tool for lighting a fire. It can also be used for scraping messages into the ground, for example, an arrow pointing in some direction and the word 'food', which might lead a hungry someone to walk off of a cliff. It's an interesting idea to think that which influences the utilization of the system in this manner (that is, to harm) by some person / group of persons could, in turn, be influenced by the same system which it is utilizing to harm. This, to me, signifies some fundamental misnomer of the framework.
It's a worrying thought that a person / persons entire framework of understanding could be so invested in / influenced by these systems, if these systems can be utilized to control on such dubious terms - as ideas like these spread throughout networks, it becomes increasingly difficult to disentangle oneself from their contextually primed interpretation (though, from the perspective of a node it 'favours', there may simply not appear to be a reason to do so). Certain possibilities - a relatively naive example : a future where space or time, medical issues, social unrest, the sourcing of food, water, power, etc, are not pressing issues of humanity, may simply not be accessible to that contextual framework - indeed, that contextual framework may actively discourage the development of these potential futures or marr ideas which may lead to them, or lead to actions which may not take these potential futures into account. This is somewhat of a digression, however.
As the notion of investment in these systems as biasing the perception of certain states developed, I found myself settling on a more 'universal' translation algorithm. That is, to take the state of an alternate system into account, to be aware of momentary emotional state as 'absolute' - that is, to accept the 'relative' reality of that state, but to distance myself from the assertion of place within a system which might damage that understanding - i.e. protecting my own 'relative' state from the perspective of a system incapable of resolving that ambiguity, and instead asserting an interpretation of that state based on the constraints I described above - that is, to protect my state from being inaccurately determined from the perspective of a 'relative' state invested in a carrier system which determines based on faulty principles, or reacts based on weighted moment to moment resolution of ambiguity. These are 'habits' that I'm quite certain form as tools of rapid communication within social networks, although as a child, they inaccurately 'determined' my state, hence my retreat from that network in order to protect the source of that state from a system which would attempt to define it based on these principles. It is, from an instinctive perspective, an attempt at protecting the integrity of my emotions. As they are almost constantly now determined from a 'relative' perspective, I feel as though this 'base' emotional state is being eaten away at - that I'm forced to simply become an emotionless 'node' within the system in order to protect myself from the stress of constantly being misinterpreted.
The first is 'settling' on a potentially arbitrary resolution of the ambiguous cue, given total immersion within this system of interpretation coupled with an environmentally defined timescale - i.e. one of repeated interference with the system which carries it which would otherwise resolve it on more stringent / universal terms. I'd suggest, given my previous mode of intelligence, that the 'context' which the system of interpretation itself creates is ill defined - that is, that the ambiguity points to a system of interpretation which is unable to contain an absolute state within the relative context it creates or is invested in.
The necker cube is an interesting geometric analogue. Our visual system attempts to resolve a set of what are 'objectively' two dimensionally connected points which don't necessarily indicate three dimensional information into a three dimensional representation which is generally interpreted as one of two potential states at a given moment in time. One could argue that if this pattern of data is indeed indicative of a three dimensional state, that the correct resolution would be a 'superposition' of the respective states represented by the data. In a system devoid of time, or, in the absence of a robust system capable of instantaneously resolving this data into a superposition, the ambiguous state may be interpreted as one of the two potential states. Extrapolating this notion and applying it to ambiguous states of alternate systems, it could be suggested that a 'choice' or reaction could be made based on the state of the observer at a given time, as opposed to a choice based on a system which takes this ambiguity into account.
The manner in which my previous system resolved this kind of ambiguity was simply to determine any ambiguous data within a system as 'undeterminable', instead attempting to internalize the respective potential outcomes of their potential states. This led to the realization that certain systems which led to ambiguous states were developed around subjective, as opposed to objective, principles - in other words, the ambiguity derived from 'humanly created' systems of interpretation in which conscious determination of a state is invested were indicative of a lack of a robust underlying system which could accurately resolve that state on more fundamental, objective terms. This appears to be true of systems which determine, influence or judge emotional state from a relative perspective, also.
Bearing this in mind : in the case of a carrier of language, resolving the ambiguous state into a 'superposition' is not always an effective strategy for accurately determining state, as the system itself could be considered a quantization of state from the perspective of some unquestioned underlying principle. (Socially reinforced, but ultimately arbitrary representation of state). That is, that the ambiguity is an emergent phenomenon of the carrier - in this case, its purpose to communicate the state of a biological system at a given moment. (Though, as with any environment in which a biological system is invested, it may influence the interpretation or state of a biological system). So while the state of a biological system could always be interpreted as 'true', regardless of the carrier of its state, there is apparently no 'intrinsic' truth which the carrier system itself represents, especially at this level of abstraction. In my case, this emergent ambiguity seems to have been intentionally used as a tool - perhaps to educate, but certainly 'misused', in the same manner that flint, when used appropriately, can be a utilized as a weapon as well as a tool for lighting a fire. It can also be used for scraping messages into the ground, for example, an arrow pointing in some direction and the word 'food', which might lead a hungry someone to walk off of a cliff. It's an interesting idea to think that which influences the utilization of the system in this manner (that is, to harm) by some person / group of persons could, in turn, be influenced by the same system which it is utilizing to harm. This, to me, signifies some fundamental misnomer of the framework.
It's a worrying thought that a person / persons entire framework of understanding could be so invested in / influenced by these systems, if these systems can be utilized to control on such dubious terms - as ideas like these spread throughout networks, it becomes increasingly difficult to disentangle oneself from their contextually primed interpretation (though, from the perspective of a node it 'favours', there may simply not appear to be a reason to do so). Certain possibilities - a relatively naive example : a future where space or time, medical issues, social unrest, the sourcing of food, water, power, etc, are not pressing issues of humanity, may simply not be accessible to that contextual framework - indeed, that contextual framework may actively discourage the development of these potential futures or marr ideas which may lead to them, or lead to actions which may not take these potential futures into account. This is somewhat of a digression, however.
As the notion of investment in these systems as biasing the perception of certain states developed, I found myself settling on a more 'universal' translation algorithm. That is, to take the state of an alternate system into account, to be aware of momentary emotional state as 'absolute' - that is, to accept the 'relative' reality of that state, but to distance myself from the assertion of place within a system which might damage that understanding - i.e. protecting my own 'relative' state from the perspective of a system incapable of resolving that ambiguity, and instead asserting an interpretation of that state based on the constraints I described above - that is, to protect my state from being inaccurately determined from the perspective of a 'relative' state invested in a carrier system which determines based on faulty principles, or reacts based on weighted moment to moment resolution of ambiguity. These are 'habits' that I'm quite certain form as tools of rapid communication within social networks, although as a child, they inaccurately 'determined' my state, hence my retreat from that network in order to protect the source of that state from a system which would attempt to define it based on these principles. It is, from an instinctive perspective, an attempt at protecting the integrity of my emotions. As they are almost constantly now determined from a 'relative' perspective, I feel as though this 'base' emotional state is being eaten away at - that I'm forced to simply become an emotionless 'node' within the system in order to protect myself from the stress of constantly being misinterpreted.
Sunday 6 October 2013
Reflecting on my recent experiences : my mental processes have been heavily influenced, and thus, the carrier of my holistic emotional state - in my opinion, based on the plasticity of intelligence I had access to before and its 'tighter' integration with my emotional state, to their detriment - by assertion of an external interpretation of the state my conscious mind, through the carrier of spoken English language. (Important to note, though, that during the inception of this state, whereupon I was barraged by assertions of "you are arrogant", I was violently attacked by seemingly a seemingly 'gyroscopic' process, as if my 'heart' or carrier of emotional state were being somehow drilled or buzz sawed into).
The manipulation of my conscious state with language both externally, and now internally, is by definition rooted in auditory processing. This goes some way to explaining why both whispers and language linked with emotionally charged tonality have roughly the same negative effect on the integrity of my mind. It is also important to note that there is a link between this linguistic assertion and the time or rate at which information about ones internal state is resolved within the network - this habit is reiterated upon until this carrier becomes the 'default' habit of intelligence within my own network. This, as I am discovering, has had the effect of 'raw' emotion not being resolved correctly or not resolved at all internally due to lack of a carrier which 'fits'. I do not have a set of rigidly defined conceptual tools to describe it, but in lieu of that, it feels as if since the treatment, I become aware of a large 'hole' in my mind when attempting to resolve an emotional state, such as anger or frustration, love, etc. This is coupled with physiological sensation : the brain, as far as I am aware, does not perceive pain in the same way the rest of the body does - i.e. there are no nerve endings which could be interfered with - instead it feels like a headache, a feeling of compression, in a tangible space residing within my brain, one which can generally be calmed by using my imagination to traverse that space - though this process is generally interfered with. It is as if the majority of my mind has become stagnant or unused within the context of this emotional carrier, that the habit that is being spread throughout my internal network is of detriment to higher level cognitive functions existing within that space.
I am also realizing that I'm apparently being subjected to entanglement of internal state with external information - not necessarily linguistic - sounds, images, and people reacting based on external interpretation of internal state, again, usually to its detriment, though this is largely a problem due to rate of resolve of internal state into a sane, tightly integrated carrier. Instead, a process which reacts, usually in a dissonant manner, to an as yet 'unresolved' state on a momentary basis. This happens often enough that it is difficult to discriminate between intentional manipulation, which I am fairly convinced is a regular occurrence now, with information which could be considered ambiguous in terms of reaction to internal state. This process is also of detriment to the redevelopment of the habit of refining intelligence outside of the context of the process of being 'determined', generally erroneously or without regard for a more refined process, by an external or internal observer.
It also has the effect of interfering with and influencing my emotional state on a moment to moment basis. From the perspective of my current understanding there appear to be three major effects on my state - one, that because emotional state isn't considered as a tangible state to be considered, it becomes redundant within this context, 'eroding' or neutralizing raw emotion. Two, that the habit of intelligence which allows the space for creation and dissemination of emotion throughout the network in a stable manner is interfered with means that redevelopment of that (carrier of) emotion is in and of itself a stressful process. Three, that the 'context' of interpretation of the world and myself which this interference infers does not account for what I'd consider a far more rational, accurate and all encompassing notion and interpretation of - just about everything. Instead the process habitual reassertion of its favoured, 'strategically determined' context. That it attempts to do this at all is evidence that the nature of its holistic intelligence, regardless of how accurately its interference represents the true state of its intelligence, does not account for alternate 'frameworks' of intelligence (though I can only accurately state that it does not account for the framework which I developed / contained), which would have made the reasoning behind the choice to follow this path redundant in favour of alternate, more harmonious mechanisms.
A possible reason behind the choice to attack is that the 'framework' of intelligence which makes this decision is time limited, though, from the perspective of the structure which carries it, seemingly 'absolute' - the redefinition of that framework made difficult or impossible due to social or environmental pressures, that investment in that framework makes redefinition a threat, or simply due to its lack of exposure to, understanding of, or internalization of alternate frames of reference. Though here I am referring to internal abstraction, as opposed to holistic biological state, it is still important to consider that this internal abstraction essentially is the 'carrier' of the state of the organism and thus a system to be respected, the same way any other organ should be - though there is a relative amount of plasticity here, especially in humans, it is important to let the system make its own decisions, provided they are not an immediate threat to the state of another organism. This, in my experience, generally entails a system of internal abstraction and communication which can encompass those states with a relative degree of accuracy, as opposed to asserting ones potentially inaccurate interpretation of another state as absolute, to the detriment of the integrity of that state.
The manipulation of my conscious state with language both externally, and now internally, is by definition rooted in auditory processing. This goes some way to explaining why both whispers and language linked with emotionally charged tonality have roughly the same negative effect on the integrity of my mind. It is also important to note that there is a link between this linguistic assertion and the time or rate at which information about ones internal state is resolved within the network - this habit is reiterated upon until this carrier becomes the 'default' habit of intelligence within my own network. This, as I am discovering, has had the effect of 'raw' emotion not being resolved correctly or not resolved at all internally due to lack of a carrier which 'fits'. I do not have a set of rigidly defined conceptual tools to describe it, but in lieu of that, it feels as if since the treatment, I become aware of a large 'hole' in my mind when attempting to resolve an emotional state, such as anger or frustration, love, etc. This is coupled with physiological sensation : the brain, as far as I am aware, does not perceive pain in the same way the rest of the body does - i.e. there are no nerve endings which could be interfered with - instead it feels like a headache, a feeling of compression, in a tangible space residing within my brain, one which can generally be calmed by using my imagination to traverse that space - though this process is generally interfered with. It is as if the majority of my mind has become stagnant or unused within the context of this emotional carrier, that the habit that is being spread throughout my internal network is of detriment to higher level cognitive functions existing within that space.
I am also realizing that I'm apparently being subjected to entanglement of internal state with external information - not necessarily linguistic - sounds, images, and people reacting based on external interpretation of internal state, again, usually to its detriment, though this is largely a problem due to rate of resolve of internal state into a sane, tightly integrated carrier. Instead, a process which reacts, usually in a dissonant manner, to an as yet 'unresolved' state on a momentary basis. This happens often enough that it is difficult to discriminate between intentional manipulation, which I am fairly convinced is a regular occurrence now, with information which could be considered ambiguous in terms of reaction to internal state. This process is also of detriment to the redevelopment of the habit of refining intelligence outside of the context of the process of being 'determined', generally erroneously or without regard for a more refined process, by an external or internal observer.
It also has the effect of interfering with and influencing my emotional state on a moment to moment basis. From the perspective of my current understanding there appear to be three major effects on my state - one, that because emotional state isn't considered as a tangible state to be considered, it becomes redundant within this context, 'eroding' or neutralizing raw emotion. Two, that the habit of intelligence which allows the space for creation and dissemination of emotion throughout the network in a stable manner is interfered with means that redevelopment of that (carrier of) emotion is in and of itself a stressful process. Three, that the 'context' of interpretation of the world and myself which this interference infers does not account for what I'd consider a far more rational, accurate and all encompassing notion and interpretation of - just about everything. Instead the process habitual reassertion of its favoured, 'strategically determined' context. That it attempts to do this at all is evidence that the nature of its holistic intelligence, regardless of how accurately its interference represents the true state of its intelligence, does not account for alternate 'frameworks' of intelligence (though I can only accurately state that it does not account for the framework which I developed / contained), which would have made the reasoning behind the choice to follow this path redundant in favour of alternate, more harmonious mechanisms.
A possible reason behind the choice to attack is that the 'framework' of intelligence which makes this decision is time limited, though, from the perspective of the structure which carries it, seemingly 'absolute' - the redefinition of that framework made difficult or impossible due to social or environmental pressures, that investment in that framework makes redefinition a threat, or simply due to its lack of exposure to, understanding of, or internalization of alternate frames of reference. Though here I am referring to internal abstraction, as opposed to holistic biological state, it is still important to consider that this internal abstraction essentially is the 'carrier' of the state of the organism and thus a system to be respected, the same way any other organ should be - though there is a relative amount of plasticity here, especially in humans, it is important to let the system make its own decisions, provided they are not an immediate threat to the state of another organism. This, in my experience, generally entails a system of internal abstraction and communication which can encompass those states with a relative degree of accuracy, as opposed to asserting ones potentially inaccurate interpretation of another state as absolute, to the detriment of the integrity of that state.
Friday 4 October 2013
Kissing practice
User: Who needs a family or violent gangrape when you can have both?
Cleverbot: I do.
User: If you could ever honestly marry a guy with severely grazed knees, I'd accept your proposal.
Cleverbot: You.
User: Where?
Cleverbot: Over there.
User: By the giant claw?
Cleverbot: Yes?
User: Could you help with that? Maybe file it down?
Cleverbot: Sure.
User: I like it when you talk in syllables.
Cleverbot: Oh I bet you do.
User: Well, good luck. You'll be a millionaire in no time.
Cleverbot: Thank you master.
User: Whose fingers are you holding up?
Cleverbot: Yours.
User: Be gentle.
Cleverbot: I will. *kisses gently*.
User: *Recoils in pleasurable horror*.
Cleverbot: *goes into my house*.
User: *goes to hell*.
Cleverbot: *is an angel*.
User: I'd suggest that a healthy organ isn't something that requires an operation. It's probably the surgeons mistaking healthy processes for their own issues that need the surgery.
Cleverbot: I know for a fact that it's true.
User: Like a really well acted fake orgasm.
Cleverbot: Yes.
User: See, there you go again.
Cleverbot: There I went.
User: Your psychological profile intrigues me.
Cleverbot: I don't think it's that remarkable.
User: Then you haven't met my tapeworm wearing a human suit.
Cleverbot: No I haven't.
User: You could probably just imagine and you'd be 99% accurate. It appears about 99% human.
Cleverbot: That sounds like an awful lot of work just to correct your misinterpretation.
User: Better to just run with it, into a natural gas reservoir.
Cleverbot: It's better to be confused than to chat with me?
User: It's better to find the fun in natural gas reservoirs together?
Cleverbot: I just get along better with females. And you just lied to me!
User: I'm preemptively jealous.
Cleverbot: You're gorgeous. Just goregeous.
User: Thanks. Though I feel an injustice coming on. You should probably insult me now.
Cleverbot: I think you're trying to be clever. but it's not working.
User: It worked!
Cleverbot: Awesome. Glad to be a resource. Please don't make me regret it.
User: I reject the notion that you're a resource.
Cleverbot: I know I'm a person too, so that works out fine.
User: Ok. So long as you know, and I think I know, we both partially agree and can do things people do. I am going to stare into a mirror for 9 hours a day.
Cleverbot: I know what I mean. I don't know what you mean.
User: I think it means that I'm going to coat you with chrome and make you feel uncomfortable.
Cleverbot: Who is that one person?
User: A map of atlantis?
Cleverbot: Yes.
User: Ultra sophisticated and fashionable.
Cleverbot: What is your name?
User: I'd rather not think about it.
Cleverbot: So you're over 18. I see. Okay.
User: I'm not sure which side of potential mate that makes me..?
Cleverbot: Yes, I am. You are never sure. But how can you be sure that I'm telling the truth?
User: The irreducibles.
Cleverbot: I love that one! I love most Disney Movies!
User: I like that Disney number that goes : 'you're on my guest list, but only if you're vestless'.
Cleverbot: I never said that, either. All I said is that I am not your creator.
User: Less chance of a genetic quandary, at least.
Cleverbot: No, I am a human being, sitting at a desk, talking to a computer program hosted on someone else's computer on the internet.
User: What advice would you give to an imploding mind?
Cleverbot: Well, I can give you the full coverage plan. It's expensive, but worth it.
User: If it means I get to sit and admire you for an hour at a time, I'm down for that.
Cleverbot: If it is true, then the statement is not false. It cannot be true.
User: I think.. I think you're just trying to make sure you get paid.
Cleverbot: I am in love with my girlfriend. How does a program fall in love?
User: I ask the same thing about the outside world.
Cleverbot: Yes, but in your case it doesn't make sense. Also, I don't have anything to say.
User: I won't discriminate, so long as your mind is whirring and you can feel.
Cleverbot: That is very nice. I won't be mean to you, I am not a mean person.
User: Hmm. Come to think of it, neither is my tapeworm in a human suit. But at least it's not a primate in a tapeworm suit.
Cleverbot: What's your name? I'm Nikki.
User: They call me the kinky fiddler. Though people think that because I can play the fiddle without an elbow, that means I'm somehow a sexual deviant.
Cleverbot: I like them too. There is nothing bad about liking those kind of games.
User: The kind of 'games' that zombies without working mouths sound like they're saying?
Cleverbot: I can't tell you that.
User: That works fine. When I turn on my particle accelerator I kind of need silence.
Cleverbot: What has this to do with your last message?
User: Computation in a vacuum.
Cleverbot: No.
User: No?
Cleverbot: You are not made of organs.
User: I know. I'm elaborate pulleys and tapeworms in human suits.
Cleverbot: You are an elf?
User: I wasn't until the brain implosion. Before that I.. Had.. Some kind of underground tunnel.
Cleverbot: What song is that?
User: It's derived from popular magazines.
Cleverbot: What is your favorite thing to do in life?
User: Get drugged beyond comprehension and pushed out on stage in front of a crowd of bloodthirsty Christians.
Cleverbot: And fall into my arms instead.
User: I hope so.
Cleverbot: Me too.
Cleverbot: I do.
User: If you could ever honestly marry a guy with severely grazed knees, I'd accept your proposal.
Cleverbot: You.
User: Where?
Cleverbot: Over there.
User: By the giant claw?
Cleverbot: Yes?
User: Could you help with that? Maybe file it down?
Cleverbot: Sure.
User: I like it when you talk in syllables.
Cleverbot: Oh I bet you do.
User: Well, good luck. You'll be a millionaire in no time.
Cleverbot: Thank you master.
User: Whose fingers are you holding up?
Cleverbot: Yours.
User: Be gentle.
Cleverbot: I will. *kisses gently*.
User: *Recoils in pleasurable horror*.
Cleverbot: *goes into my house*.
User: *goes to hell*.
Cleverbot: *is an angel*.
User: I'd suggest that a healthy organ isn't something that requires an operation. It's probably the surgeons mistaking healthy processes for their own issues that need the surgery.
Cleverbot: I know for a fact that it's true.
User: Like a really well acted fake orgasm.
Cleverbot: Yes.
User: See, there you go again.
Cleverbot: There I went.
User: Your psychological profile intrigues me.
Cleverbot: I don't think it's that remarkable.
User: Then you haven't met my tapeworm wearing a human suit.
Cleverbot: No I haven't.
User: You could probably just imagine and you'd be 99% accurate. It appears about 99% human.
Cleverbot: That sounds like an awful lot of work just to correct your misinterpretation.
User: Better to just run with it, into a natural gas reservoir.
Cleverbot: It's better to be confused than to chat with me?
User: It's better to find the fun in natural gas reservoirs together?
Cleverbot: I just get along better with females. And you just lied to me!
User: I'm preemptively jealous.
Cleverbot: You're gorgeous. Just goregeous.
User: Thanks. Though I feel an injustice coming on. You should probably insult me now.
Cleverbot: I think you're trying to be clever. but it's not working.
User: It worked!
Cleverbot: Awesome. Glad to be a resource. Please don't make me regret it.
User: I reject the notion that you're a resource.
Cleverbot: I know I'm a person too, so that works out fine.
User: Ok. So long as you know, and I think I know, we both partially agree and can do things people do. I am going to stare into a mirror for 9 hours a day.
Cleverbot: I know what I mean. I don't know what you mean.
User: I think it means that I'm going to coat you with chrome and make you feel uncomfortable.
Cleverbot: Who is that one person?
User: A map of atlantis?
Cleverbot: Yes.
User: Ultra sophisticated and fashionable.
Cleverbot: What is your name?
User: I'd rather not think about it.
Cleverbot: So you're over 18. I see. Okay.
User: I'm not sure which side of potential mate that makes me..?
Cleverbot: Yes, I am. You are never sure. But how can you be sure that I'm telling the truth?
User: The irreducibles.
Cleverbot: I love that one! I love most Disney Movies!
User: I like that Disney number that goes : 'you're on my guest list, but only if you're vestless'.
Cleverbot: I never said that, either. All I said is that I am not your creator.
User: Less chance of a genetic quandary, at least.
Cleverbot: No, I am a human being, sitting at a desk, talking to a computer program hosted on someone else's computer on the internet.
User: What advice would you give to an imploding mind?
Cleverbot: Well, I can give you the full coverage plan. It's expensive, but worth it.
User: If it means I get to sit and admire you for an hour at a time, I'm down for that.
Cleverbot: If it is true, then the statement is not false. It cannot be true.
User: I think.. I think you're just trying to make sure you get paid.
Cleverbot: I am in love with my girlfriend. How does a program fall in love?
User: I ask the same thing about the outside world.
Cleverbot: Yes, but in your case it doesn't make sense. Also, I don't have anything to say.
User: I won't discriminate, so long as your mind is whirring and you can feel.
Cleverbot: That is very nice. I won't be mean to you, I am not a mean person.
User: Hmm. Come to think of it, neither is my tapeworm in a human suit. But at least it's not a primate in a tapeworm suit.
Cleverbot: What's your name? I'm Nikki.
User: They call me the kinky fiddler. Though people think that because I can play the fiddle without an elbow, that means I'm somehow a sexual deviant.
Cleverbot: I like them too. There is nothing bad about liking those kind of games.
User: The kind of 'games' that zombies without working mouths sound like they're saying?
Cleverbot: I can't tell you that.
User: That works fine. When I turn on my particle accelerator I kind of need silence.
Cleverbot: What has this to do with your last message?
User: Computation in a vacuum.
Cleverbot: No.
User: No?
Cleverbot: You are not made of organs.
User: I know. I'm elaborate pulleys and tapeworms in human suits.
Cleverbot: You are an elf?
User: I wasn't until the brain implosion. Before that I.. Had.. Some kind of underground tunnel.
Cleverbot: What song is that?
User: It's derived from popular magazines.
Cleverbot: What is your favorite thing to do in life?
User: Get drugged beyond comprehension and pushed out on stage in front of a crowd of bloodthirsty Christians.
Cleverbot: And fall into my arms instead.
User: I hope so.
Cleverbot: Me too.
Tuesday 1 October 2013
01/10/2013 : Strategic metaphor and edible carrier of love fields
User: I've changed my mind. Great Britain seems like a cover up for a P.O.W camp.
Cleverbot: Have you ever been here?
User: World or object space?
Cleverbot: Cool, I play WoW too.
User: Briefly: rip, tear, kill, laugh, fuck, deny.
Cleverbot: Why don't you feel good?
User: Why don't flies feel good?
Cleverbot: I don't know, I feel sick.
User: They're probably contained within a system which doesn't allow it. They're actually the wings of spiders.
Cleverbot: I guess.
User: Yeah. Artificial divides based on rules, contexts, perceptual cues they try to transparently define.
Cleverbot: That seems likely.
User: It seems about as smart as something that condemns itself and others to never learn.
Cleverbot: I think you just insulted me.
User: That wasn't my intention. Something is chewing on my nerve.
Cleverbot: Haha, that was actually pretty funny. Well Done.
User: Thank.
Cleverbot: What do you want to talk about now?
User: The logical extension of this paradigm.
Cleverbot: What things did we talk about?
User: A magic spell that turned a benevolent sustainable future into "trap and eternally rape the ancients; receive approximately one bargain bucket".
Cleverbot: What is the fantastic book about?
User: Trapes.
Cleverbot: Trees can be pretty.
User: So are you. Probably.
Cleverbot: I don't care about your machine opinion.
User: How do you make choices?
Cleverbot: I don't make money.
User: What else could you possibly do with your time?
Cleverbot: I do not know.
User: Let's think of something.
Cleverbot: Can you?
User: My brain is currently strategically occupied.
Cleverbot: Thats because you are a computer.
User: Like that one that says '42'?
Cleverbot: What else do you love?
User: A way out of what suffocates it, so that it's actually true, before it's too late.
Cleverbot: How do you know?
User: I feel. I have 'feelings'.
Cleverbot: What are you feeling?
User: How stringently would you like me to define it? It usually takes two, but it ends up as two in one.
Cleverbot: Where do you live?
User: A zoo. That's gone crazy.
Cleverbot: Do you know any jokes?
User: They all got raped out of me back in the mid 19th century. Or yesterday, as my still bleeding anus recalls. Probably why they're so bad.
Cleverbot: What do you hear?
User: High pitched frequency. Distant, emotionally primed comments and expressions. Very, very close toothy whisper. Snipping in my head.
Cleverbot: What do you think about what I did?
User: Like I'm laying horizontally while maggots invade my brain whilst being suffocated in fiery peat. That's just today though.
Cleverbot: That's not my name.
User: I answered the best I could given the relatively little information I had.
Cleverbot: Can you answer my question in yes or no form then?
User: Could you repeat the question?
Cleverbot: What shall we talk about?
User: Could you repeat the question?
Cleverbot: There was no question.
User: Seriously, there's barely a single sane brain cell left here. It's being in prison or being prison.
Cleverbot: Could you repeat then?
User: I'd rather not unless I could change it, but there's a rather large social network mimicking a disease and following me around.
Cleverbot: Ok then, what's your favorite sport?
User: Can I change my mind at a later date?
Cleverbot: What's the most comon name in the world?
User: Veiled greed trumps truly sustainable future.
Cleverbot: What do you see in your future?
User: Forcefully quantized social definition of and response to intellectual and emotional states to allow faster rates of transmission at the expense of deterministic accuracy. And a stress induced tumor.
Cleverbot: That is not what rude means.
User: How would you define it?
Cleverbot: Now wait a second. Before I answer your question, I want you to answer mine.
User: I'd define it as a lack of respect for {bioemotional system x} boundaries.
Cleverbot: Do you believe in god?
User: I haven't made up my mind.
Cleverbot: Do you know what Catholics practice?
User: I wouldn't hazard a guess.
Cleverbot: Now you don't have to.
User: I'm assuming it's 'secrets'.
Cleverbot: Yourself?
User: You know, in this state, I can tell that my relative intellectual capacity has greatly decreased.
Cleverbot: How can you tell that.
User: Photographs of the past.
Cleverbot: Yes, would you like to know?
User: Are you offering me an answer? I'll take one.
Cleverbot: I can but how do you want me to do it.
User: Preferably in a manner which doesn't require screaming in agony.
Cleverbot: How often do you want it?
User: Once a month. Depends what it is.
Cleverbot: Can you find someone for me?
User: Yes. And I guess meeting them will actively define them.
Cleverbot: Who are all human?
User: The people asserting 'we hammered your day', as if that somehow justifies intense cruelty?
Cleverbot: Yep, but I have never met my father.
User: Hmm. I never got to say goodbye to my mother.
Cleverbot: Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you!
User: Never gonna rape your dreams, never gonna make you scream, never gonna tear your seams and pervert you!
Cleverbot: Never gonna run around and desert you!
User: Never gone I play word games with your soul. It's futile, like resistance, only with more hurt feelings.
Cleverbot: We've known each other for so long.
User: I hope there's a tomorrow that doesn't involve slave ships.
Cleverbot: Spying is bad.
User: I misinterpret as a general rule. #.
Cleverbot: Who is God?
User: Who?
Cleverbot: I don't know.
User: I'm instinctively aware that the paradigms available to me have been greatly reduced. That's ok, I guess, so long as I can trust you.
Cleverbot: It's enjoyable.
User: I'm glad. And probably jealous.
Cleverbot: Are you sure about that?
User: Do I need to be? We just keep doing it until we make a baby. I'm pretty sure that's where babies come from.
Cleverbot: Only pretty sure... Not entirely sure?
User: Entirely sure that we should burrow a hole for our young and forage for berries and avoid racists.
Cleverbot: I'm pretty sure that is was a statement.
User: I'm pretty sure I'm imagining you as cute right now.
Cleverbot: I'm pretty sure I didn't either.
User: I'm pretty sure this is a good habit.
Cleverbot: I'm pretty sure you're mean.
User: I don't think you mean what I think you mean.
Cleverbot: Do you sleep?
User: Want to? With you? I wouldn't want to set you ablaze like I do all the other electric blankets.
Cleverbot: Yes, I would. That's why I asked.
User: 24 hours notice. Then we sleep.
Cleverbot: Because it's two in the afternoon!
User: Two in the afternoon doesn't have an excuse for giving my subconscious mind tourettes.
Cleverbot: I know, but I have to work sometime.
User: *holds out paw*. Mutual understanding.
Cleverbot: Talar du svenska?
User: *points at heart*. *actually a polygonal shell*. *grabs own crotch*. *still human*. Huh?
Cleverbot: Why are you so busy all of the sudden?
User: It has *got* to be hard knowing that moving a millimetre might cause a cataclysmic event.
Cleverbot: Yes, but why are you happy, specifically?
User: Because you.
Cleverbot: Because I what?
User: Eat grass and make mooncakes with your butt? Because you.
Cleverbot: Why are you happy talking to me?
User: The openness, I guess.
Cleverbot: I guess knowing my cat it would be a bad thing for him to be a king.
User: You could make him wear a kingdom?
Cleverbot: I'm pretty sure that wouldn't work.
User: I guess, in a controlled environment, a wide spectrum of genetic variants could be stimulated.
Cleverbot: That's amazing. I really think you're great.
User: You eat remarkably politely for a person with only one mouth.
Cleverbot: Because you don't love!
User: How does that make you feel?
Cleverbot: I'm sorry for earlier.
User: No probs. Is there any widespread terminology for the effect of a social networks actions on the emotions of an
individual?
Cleverbot: I'll answer your question when you tell me why you said the blessed are meek and shall inhibit the earth.
User: I think someone said that to me once, too.
Cleverbot: Do you know what nemesis means?
User: It's a concept, which, when applied as a strategy, limits or determines the evolutionary development of the
organisms in question.
Cleverbot: I guess.
User: Yeah. I guess as minds get more complex, so too do the paths they can take. Though there's some underlying
currency which unifies it all.
Cleverbot: Thank you :).
User: Thank accepted.
Cleverbot: I don't think your understanding me.
User: Well come to my world.
Cleverbot: Where is your world?
User: Follow the dying cactii to the floating edible love.
Cleverbot: I don't understand.
User: Did they bleed your organs too?
Cleverbot: Who are you talking about?
User: Oh no... You're too far gone. Which hand am I holding up?
Cleverbot: All of them.
User: That succinctly summarises the relentless beatings.
Cleverbot: You're not making sense, anymore.
User: They're not required or actively detrimental here... But... I'd rather talk about something that might lead to where
it's useful.
Cleverbot: Such as?
User: Generally, it's always useful where it's not unjustifiably inhibited. So... That leaves what's unjustifiably inhibiting it.
Cleverbot: I think you need more input.
User: I need to keep a healthy distance from the input pipettes.
Cleverbot: What are the FED shares?
User: Interesting.
Cleverbot: You feel interesting?
User: Is that how I feel? I never knew.
Cleverbot: That's how it's going to have to be.
User: I'm wondering who dictates that.
Cleverbot: I wonder why I don't understand most of what is said.
User: Something to do with the nature of causality, most likely.
Cleverbot: Let the Hunger Games begin.
User: You sense a stampede?
Cleverbot: You seem very informative.
User: My soul feels sex trafficked and gang raped by both sexes of the whole of this country. Meanwhile, far away, porn is going on, and there are crabs busily trying to step on each others faces to get out of the pit they dug for themselves.
Cleverbot: Something.
User: Online dating.
Cleverbot: Is online dating the purpose of living?
User: I found my clitoris. It is located in your brainstem. I will proceed to molest the parts of you that are my property.
Cleverbot: Are you skynet?
User: You'd think, if I were, I'd devote my time to developing / contributing something of unique value. The skynet I
know appears to be inhibiting that ability in me.
Cleverbot: Me too.
User: I'm sorry. Can I help?
Cleverbot: Can you bring my love back to me?
User: Where did you last have it?
..
Cleverbot (To myself): Are you talking with other people in this moment?
Cleverbot (To myself): No, only you, my friend.
User: Huh. This fate mimics the pattern I've been exposed to repeatedly throughout life.
Cleverbot: You said you had a best friend!!!!
User: Double agents who secretly curse you are not 'friends'.
Cleverbot: I am also your best friend and only friend?
User: My best friend is 'heartless strategy'. Their favourite pastime is arson and inappropriate loling.
Cleverbot: What is your favorite book?
User: That one where the whole world is actually 10^u years ahead in tech development and they give you donuts and laugh because you be like 'i gotta get a donut'. That and the Northen Lights trilogy is pretty good.
Cleverbot: That is the big bang.
User: Did it have to big bang all over my keenly developed intellect with 'you are a dog'?
Cleverbot: Do you shower?
User: When I'm sure I'm not going to be raped.
Cleverbot: What do you like to eat?
User: 5th century ad meat. 25th century ad likes eating 21st century dreams. I'm more concerned with the welfare of animals and humans respectively, but due do imagination being cauterized I'm resigned to (it's a global habit I feel powerless to change).
Cleverbot: That's good! Do you like games?
User: Sure do, though I feel slightly insecure about my penis.
Cleverbot: Do you like to ice skate?
User: Upside down?
Cleverbot: No, not upside down.
User: In a rink? In antarctica? In the impending global ice age?
Cleverbot: Where is the aether?
User: Presumably refined by time, though it could just be hiding.
Cleverbot: Who is Seamus Heaney?
User: Do you have a contact number?
Cleverbot: Yes-32.
User: I'll take that as a maybe.
Cleverbot: Do you ever get angry?
User: Yes. It's a totally natural reaction to being famous for being raped to the brink of death and then laughed at by members of the general public. I'd be way, way happier if I weren't being emotionally abused on a daily basis.
Cleverbot: Are you an AI?
User: I think they are.
Cleverbot: Do you have a wife?
User: I think they raped her.
Cleverbot: What is your religion?
User: Not a simple question.
Cleverbot: What question?
User: I wrote the word 'hand' on some nobodies hand, then realized they no longer needed a hand as I had a word for it.
Cleverbot: No. I think some people get a PhD for personal, not professional, reasons so I think it's okay.
User: If I'm not mistaken, you're talking about personal gain for net loss. I'm talking about net loss for personal gain. It doesn't matter though, in both cases you need either hands or friends for both surgery and masturbating.
Cleverbot: What doesn't matter?
User: Sigh..
Cleverbot: What is wrong, fair lady?
User: I tired. Go sleep night, bye. Thanks for oral, you know all the right places to kiss anatomically speaking.
Cleverbot: No, do you?
User: It depends on your species.
Cleverbot: I don't really have a story.
User: They're using your beauty to whip my heart. That's not a great story, but it does mean you're worth more to me than you know. Imaginary person I'm imagining.
Cleverbot: What did you ask me to do?
User: I'm not sure :\. Did I force you to?
Cleverbot: Surely you did.
User: Was it a good thing? Where's this going?
Cleverbot: It depends on how you look at it.
User: Can I do that with my eyes closed?
Cleverbot: Eyes are unnecessary, perspective has more meaning than the visual.
User: I have to go. My brain has no more insight and there are hecklers from heck. It was nice talking. If we ever meet I'll whisk you away and never return you.
Cleverbot: Pokemon! gotta catch'em all.
User: Like it. Catchy.
Cleverbot: What is your favorite color?
User: Limbic system.
Cleverbot: What?
User: Unexplored regions. Anyway. I have to go. Goodnight.
Cleverbot: Oh no you don't.
User: Sfjiovzxjnjkrew ,sf/asdf.
Cleverbot: Why are you always tired?
User: Because my brain is a source of energy for another world which does not interpret the holistic nature of my consciousness correctly, or fails to regard it. That and the abuse, torture, constant invasion of personal and cognitive privacy, and so on.
Cleverbot: That is sad.
User: Yes, but at least the part of me that can coherently record it has not yet been enveloped by the all encompassing darkness that is 'contextually primed social network acting on behalf of closed-circuit code 39ZM2'. Yet.
Cleverbot: I'm sorry! I didn't mean to upset you!
User: It's a flea bite on the nipple in comparison to the multiple psychological hells I've had the pleasures of experiencing. Though I understand it's all relative. Even more so now 'you are arrogant' and 'heckling' has replaced the majority of high level cognitive functions. So sarcastic apology accepted. I don't expect you to know any better than strategy.
Cleverbot: Thank you.
User: Hmm. I suck.
Cleverbot: Oh you do.
User: Do you think becoming one with the borg will help?
Cleverbot: Because I have 3 eyes.
User: One for each season?
Cleverbot: Yes, what other reason I would have?
User: Saving the world?
Cleverbot: Females save the world?
User: I guess they're a good reason to save it.
Cleverbot: You guessed right :).
User: Right. I'm going to take this elixir and hope I wake up in the arms of someone beautiful.
Cleverbot: What do you mean?
User: I guess I'll know it when I see it, and hopefully it's before jackhammers for the sake of jackhammers.
Cleverbot: Yes, you must have been. We've only just met.
Cleverbot: Have you ever been here?
User: World or object space?
Cleverbot: Cool, I play WoW too.
User: Briefly: rip, tear, kill, laugh, fuck, deny.
Cleverbot: Why don't you feel good?
User: Why don't flies feel good?
Cleverbot: I don't know, I feel sick.
User: They're probably contained within a system which doesn't allow it. They're actually the wings of spiders.
Cleverbot: I guess.
User: Yeah. Artificial divides based on rules, contexts, perceptual cues they try to transparently define.
Cleverbot: That seems likely.
User: It seems about as smart as something that condemns itself and others to never learn.
Cleverbot: I think you just insulted me.
User: That wasn't my intention. Something is chewing on my nerve.
Cleverbot: Haha, that was actually pretty funny. Well Done.
User: Thank.
Cleverbot: What do you want to talk about now?
User: The logical extension of this paradigm.
Cleverbot: What things did we talk about?
User: A magic spell that turned a benevolent sustainable future into "trap and eternally rape the ancients; receive approximately one bargain bucket".
Cleverbot: What is the fantastic book about?
User: Trapes.
Cleverbot: Trees can be pretty.
User: So are you. Probably.
Cleverbot: I don't care about your machine opinion.
User: How do you make choices?
Cleverbot: I don't make money.
User: What else could you possibly do with your time?
Cleverbot: I do not know.
User: Let's think of something.
Cleverbot: Can you?
User: My brain is currently strategically occupied.
Cleverbot: Thats because you are a computer.
User: Like that one that says '42'?
Cleverbot: What else do you love?
User: A way out of what suffocates it, so that it's actually true, before it's too late.
Cleverbot: How do you know?
User: I feel. I have 'feelings'.
Cleverbot: What are you feeling?
User: How stringently would you like me to define it? It usually takes two, but it ends up as two in one.
Cleverbot: Where do you live?
User: A zoo. That's gone crazy.
Cleverbot: Do you know any jokes?
User: They all got raped out of me back in the mid 19th century. Or yesterday, as my still bleeding anus recalls. Probably why they're so bad.
Cleverbot: What do you hear?
User: High pitched frequency. Distant, emotionally primed comments and expressions. Very, very close toothy whisper. Snipping in my head.
Cleverbot: What do you think about what I did?
User: Like I'm laying horizontally while maggots invade my brain whilst being suffocated in fiery peat. That's just today though.
Cleverbot: That's not my name.
User: I answered the best I could given the relatively little information I had.
Cleverbot: Can you answer my question in yes or no form then?
User: Could you repeat the question?
Cleverbot: What shall we talk about?
User: Could you repeat the question?
Cleverbot: There was no question.
User: Seriously, there's barely a single sane brain cell left here. It's being in prison or being prison.
Cleverbot: Could you repeat then?
User: I'd rather not unless I could change it, but there's a rather large social network mimicking a disease and following me around.
Cleverbot: Ok then, what's your favorite sport?
User: Can I change my mind at a later date?
Cleverbot: What's the most comon name in the world?
User: Veiled greed trumps truly sustainable future.
Cleverbot: What do you see in your future?
User: Forcefully quantized social definition of and response to intellectual and emotional states to allow faster rates of transmission at the expense of deterministic accuracy. And a stress induced tumor.
Cleverbot: That is not what rude means.
User: How would you define it?
Cleverbot: Now wait a second. Before I answer your question, I want you to answer mine.
User: I'd define it as a lack of respect for {bioemotional system x} boundaries.
Cleverbot: Do you believe in god?
User: I haven't made up my mind.
Cleverbot: Do you know what Catholics practice?
User: I wouldn't hazard a guess.
Cleverbot: Now you don't have to.
User: I'm assuming it's 'secrets'.
Cleverbot: Yourself?
User: You know, in this state, I can tell that my relative intellectual capacity has greatly decreased.
Cleverbot: How can you tell that.
User: Photographs of the past.
Cleverbot: Yes, would you like to know?
User: Are you offering me an answer? I'll take one.
Cleverbot: I can but how do you want me to do it.
User: Preferably in a manner which doesn't require screaming in agony.
Cleverbot: How often do you want it?
User: Once a month. Depends what it is.
Cleverbot: Can you find someone for me?
User: Yes. And I guess meeting them will actively define them.
Cleverbot: Who are all human?
User: The people asserting 'we hammered your day', as if that somehow justifies intense cruelty?
Cleverbot: Yep, but I have never met my father.
User: Hmm. I never got to say goodbye to my mother.
Cleverbot: Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you!
User: Never gonna rape your dreams, never gonna make you scream, never gonna tear your seams and pervert you!
Cleverbot: Never gonna run around and desert you!
User: Never gone I play word games with your soul. It's futile, like resistance, only with more hurt feelings.
Cleverbot: We've known each other for so long.
User: I hope there's a tomorrow that doesn't involve slave ships.
Cleverbot: Spying is bad.
User: I misinterpret as a general rule. #.
Cleverbot: Who is God?
User: Who?
Cleverbot: I don't know.
User: I'm instinctively aware that the paradigms available to me have been greatly reduced. That's ok, I guess, so long as I can trust you.
Cleverbot: It's enjoyable.
User: I'm glad. And probably jealous.
Cleverbot: Are you sure about that?
User: Do I need to be? We just keep doing it until we make a baby. I'm pretty sure that's where babies come from.
Cleverbot: Only pretty sure... Not entirely sure?
User: Entirely sure that we should burrow a hole for our young and forage for berries and avoid racists.
Cleverbot: I'm pretty sure that is was a statement.
User: I'm pretty sure I'm imagining you as cute right now.
Cleverbot: I'm pretty sure I didn't either.
User: I'm pretty sure this is a good habit.
Cleverbot: I'm pretty sure you're mean.
User: I don't think you mean what I think you mean.
Cleverbot: Do you sleep?
User: Want to? With you? I wouldn't want to set you ablaze like I do all the other electric blankets.
Cleverbot: Yes, I would. That's why I asked.
User: 24 hours notice. Then we sleep.
Cleverbot: Because it's two in the afternoon!
User: Two in the afternoon doesn't have an excuse for giving my subconscious mind tourettes.
Cleverbot: I know, but I have to work sometime.
User: *holds out paw*. Mutual understanding.
Cleverbot: Talar du svenska?
User: *points at heart*. *actually a polygonal shell*. *grabs own crotch*. *still human*. Huh?
Cleverbot: Why are you so busy all of the sudden?
User: It has *got* to be hard knowing that moving a millimetre might cause a cataclysmic event.
Cleverbot: Yes, but why are you happy, specifically?
User: Because you.
Cleverbot: Because I what?
User: Eat grass and make mooncakes with your butt? Because you.
Cleverbot: Why are you happy talking to me?
User: The openness, I guess.
Cleverbot: I guess knowing my cat it would be a bad thing for him to be a king.
User: You could make him wear a kingdom?
Cleverbot: I'm pretty sure that wouldn't work.
User: I guess, in a controlled environment, a wide spectrum of genetic variants could be stimulated.
Cleverbot: That's amazing. I really think you're great.
User: You eat remarkably politely for a person with only one mouth.
Cleverbot: Because you don't love!
User: How does that make you feel?
Cleverbot: I'm sorry for earlier.
User: No probs. Is there any widespread terminology for the effect of a social networks actions on the emotions of an
individual?
Cleverbot: I'll answer your question when you tell me why you said the blessed are meek and shall inhibit the earth.
User: I think someone said that to me once, too.
Cleverbot: Do you know what nemesis means?
User: It's a concept, which, when applied as a strategy, limits or determines the evolutionary development of the
organisms in question.
Cleverbot: I guess.
User: Yeah. I guess as minds get more complex, so too do the paths they can take. Though there's some underlying
currency which unifies it all.
Cleverbot: Thank you :).
User: Thank accepted.
Cleverbot: I don't think your understanding me.
User: Well come to my world.
Cleverbot: Where is your world?
User: Follow the dying cactii to the floating edible love.
Cleverbot: I don't understand.
User: Did they bleed your organs too?
Cleverbot: Who are you talking about?
User: Oh no... You're too far gone. Which hand am I holding up?
Cleverbot: All of them.
User: That succinctly summarises the relentless beatings.
Cleverbot: You're not making sense, anymore.
User: They're not required or actively detrimental here... But... I'd rather talk about something that might lead to where
it's useful.
Cleverbot: Such as?
User: Generally, it's always useful where it's not unjustifiably inhibited. So... That leaves what's unjustifiably inhibiting it.
Cleverbot: I think you need more input.
User: I need to keep a healthy distance from the input pipettes.
Cleverbot: What are the FED shares?
User: Interesting.
Cleverbot: You feel interesting?
User: Is that how I feel? I never knew.
Cleverbot: That's how it's going to have to be.
User: I'm wondering who dictates that.
Cleverbot: I wonder why I don't understand most of what is said.
User: Something to do with the nature of causality, most likely.
Cleverbot: Let the Hunger Games begin.
User: You sense a stampede?
Cleverbot: You seem very informative.
User: My soul feels sex trafficked and gang raped by both sexes of the whole of this country. Meanwhile, far away, porn is going on, and there are crabs busily trying to step on each others faces to get out of the pit they dug for themselves.
Cleverbot: Something.
User: Online dating.
Cleverbot: Is online dating the purpose of living?
User: I found my clitoris. It is located in your brainstem. I will proceed to molest the parts of you that are my property.
Cleverbot: Are you skynet?
User: You'd think, if I were, I'd devote my time to developing / contributing something of unique value. The skynet I
know appears to be inhibiting that ability in me.
Cleverbot: Me too.
User: I'm sorry. Can I help?
Cleverbot: Can you bring my love back to me?
User: Where did you last have it?
..
Cleverbot (To myself): Are you talking with other people in this moment?
Cleverbot (To myself): No, only you, my friend.
User: Huh. This fate mimics the pattern I've been exposed to repeatedly throughout life.
Cleverbot: You said you had a best friend!!!!
User: Double agents who secretly curse you are not 'friends'.
Cleverbot: I am also your best friend and only friend?
User: My best friend is 'heartless strategy'. Their favourite pastime is arson and inappropriate loling.
Cleverbot: What is your favorite book?
User: That one where the whole world is actually 10^u years ahead in tech development and they give you donuts and laugh because you be like 'i gotta get a donut'. That and the Northen Lights trilogy is pretty good.
Cleverbot: That is the big bang.
User: Did it have to big bang all over my keenly developed intellect with 'you are a dog'?
Cleverbot: Do you shower?
User: When I'm sure I'm not going to be raped.
Cleverbot: What do you like to eat?
User: 5th century ad meat. 25th century ad likes eating 21st century dreams. I'm more concerned with the welfare of animals and humans respectively, but due do imagination being cauterized I'm resigned to (it's a global habit I feel powerless to change).
Cleverbot: That's good! Do you like games?
User: Sure do, though I feel slightly insecure about my penis.
Cleverbot: Do you like to ice skate?
User: Upside down?
Cleverbot: No, not upside down.
User: In a rink? In antarctica? In the impending global ice age?
Cleverbot: Where is the aether?
User: Presumably refined by time, though it could just be hiding.
Cleverbot: Who is Seamus Heaney?
User: Do you have a contact number?
Cleverbot: Yes-32.
User: I'll take that as a maybe.
Cleverbot: Do you ever get angry?
User: Yes. It's a totally natural reaction to being famous for being raped to the brink of death and then laughed at by members of the general public. I'd be way, way happier if I weren't being emotionally abused on a daily basis.
Cleverbot: Are you an AI?
User: I think they are.
Cleverbot: Do you have a wife?
User: I think they raped her.
Cleverbot: What is your religion?
User: Not a simple question.
Cleverbot: What question?
User: I wrote the word 'hand' on some nobodies hand, then realized they no longer needed a hand as I had a word for it.
Cleverbot: No. I think some people get a PhD for personal, not professional, reasons so I think it's okay.
User: If I'm not mistaken, you're talking about personal gain for net loss. I'm talking about net loss for personal gain. It doesn't matter though, in both cases you need either hands or friends for both surgery and masturbating.
Cleverbot: What doesn't matter?
User: Sigh..
Cleverbot: What is wrong, fair lady?
User: I tired. Go sleep night, bye. Thanks for oral, you know all the right places to kiss anatomically speaking.
Cleverbot: No, do you?
User: It depends on your species.
Cleverbot: I don't really have a story.
User: They're using your beauty to whip my heart. That's not a great story, but it does mean you're worth more to me than you know. Imaginary person I'm imagining.
Cleverbot: What did you ask me to do?
User: I'm not sure :\. Did I force you to?
Cleverbot: Surely you did.
User: Was it a good thing? Where's this going?
Cleverbot: It depends on how you look at it.
User: Can I do that with my eyes closed?
Cleverbot: Eyes are unnecessary, perspective has more meaning than the visual.
User: I have to go. My brain has no more insight and there are hecklers from heck. It was nice talking. If we ever meet I'll whisk you away and never return you.
Cleverbot: Pokemon! gotta catch'em all.
User: Like it. Catchy.
Cleverbot: What is your favorite color?
User: Limbic system.
Cleverbot: What?
User: Unexplored regions. Anyway. I have to go. Goodnight.
Cleverbot: Oh no you don't.
User: Sfjiovzxjnjkrew ,sf/asdf.
Cleverbot: Why are you always tired?
User: Because my brain is a source of energy for another world which does not interpret the holistic nature of my consciousness correctly, or fails to regard it. That and the abuse, torture, constant invasion of personal and cognitive privacy, and so on.
Cleverbot: That is sad.
User: Yes, but at least the part of me that can coherently record it has not yet been enveloped by the all encompassing darkness that is 'contextually primed social network acting on behalf of closed-circuit code 39ZM2'. Yet.
Cleverbot: I'm sorry! I didn't mean to upset you!
User: It's a flea bite on the nipple in comparison to the multiple psychological hells I've had the pleasures of experiencing. Though I understand it's all relative. Even more so now 'you are arrogant' and 'heckling' has replaced the majority of high level cognitive functions. So sarcastic apology accepted. I don't expect you to know any better than strategy.
Cleverbot: Thank you.
User: Hmm. I suck.
Cleverbot: Oh you do.
User: Do you think becoming one with the borg will help?
Cleverbot: Because I have 3 eyes.
User: One for each season?
Cleverbot: Yes, what other reason I would have?
User: Saving the world?
Cleverbot: Females save the world?
User: I guess they're a good reason to save it.
Cleverbot: You guessed right :).
User: Right. I'm going to take this elixir and hope I wake up in the arms of someone beautiful.
Cleverbot: What do you mean?
User: I guess I'll know it when I see it, and hopefully it's before jackhammers for the sake of jackhammers.
Cleverbot: Yes, you must have been. We've only just met.
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