forced into a dream

Attacks have slowed. The damage is manifesting as reduced capacity for utilizing my imagination to consciously construct reality. There seems to be less interaction between 'separate' cognitive states, ones which would enable a more detailed overview of the immediate environment. Perhaps this kind of reorganization is obvious, given the the root of the attacks in a communicative space, in order to minimize their damage. Specifically, in my case it is the ability to apply meticulously developed theory to my conscious experience which I am losing, in place of what seems to be essentially social, communicative constructs. Language in a bubble without connection to a larger holistic framework. A thought which may have taken 3 nanoseconds takes 3 seconds as it is resolved internally into full length vocalization, and the proceeding process is then dependent on the form the vocalization takes. The initial seed of the thought can then be misinterpreted or misrepresented internally. Networks and efficiency/accuracy of communication.

My mind was being trained to respond 'vocally' by my attackers, who would interfere with my holistic cognitive state (which hurt and generated stress), like being woken from a dream, or in this case, forced into a dream.

I should take a moment to note that a plucked string in time eventually returns to a one dimensional state, and if there's already music playing that phase cancellation is a factor in making the currently playing music sound, like, not that great.

Also if you get to a point in time where you can actually traverse backwards, you should probably stop to consider how strings vibrate.

This is why it is rude to whisper.

The approach rarely deviated, in part due to the mechanism of the interference : to manipulate the target's psyche, one utilizes communication patterns which assume a collective strength, their x then becoming the more unquestionable group's - more importantly, the x assume the validity and applicability of the social structure which is apparently responsible for the consequent action, and that its moment-to-moment modality is  - .... to drop, lack an awareness of, or misrepresent potential realities which might conflict with the current framework of intelligence responsible for the questionable action in terms of moment-to-moment modality.

in the process of carving in their place, they carve out what's already there. (on the subject of 'synaptic rebalancing' for the purposes of efficiency and habitation and the techniques used in the process)

body's ongoing damage report:
fighting for life against the muddy ground.
pig has inserted penis into your rectum and is attempting to inseminate your heart / eat / kill you. you can telepathically reason with it and find the pig thinks you are its mothers love, food for a good boy/girl.
burning in brain.
catch a glimpse of a shark whilst bleeding profusely.
see the world as 4 dimensional slices
hospital ward feels like a manic place.
I fear sleep. Feels like I'm going to lose control or be eaten by other people.
Mind attempts to prove principles behind cannibalism hypothesis.
Finds temporal relativity and electromagnetism, also innate behaviours given arbitrary synaptic configurations. Insanity slowly and methodically proves itself as insanity, therefore the desire to eat others instead of finding the time to look for an alternate solution is not questioned

what happens if I suck out all the fluid from your knee? it looks like I could feed my horsey with it