So, my thoughts are about the effects of determining a periodicity in any emergent spacetime exhibited by biology, though I am only attempting to relay a specific event here. (It replies - the cat lapped. Though, given its inability to comprehend the last few days (years) worth of data as a sign that continuation of its specific contextual structure is worthy of doubt, I feel obliged to suggest that this shouldn't be taken out of it. In other words, its goal is to suggest you should invest your imagination of the pre-contextually primed vector of events, whilst I suggest you imagine how that might become a deterministic periodic attractor in a sea of symbolically primed synaptic arrangements, and more importantly, the outcomes they determine given the emergent spacetime exhibited by biology - this is as much the mind as the cellular matrix, and given the level of unifying abstraction here, this definition can extend to dreams. To put it another way, I fear it, with good reason.)
Melted by a time ray (like a black hole but weirder)
Came very close to an 'orbital' in time? Felt time simultaneously flowing forwards and backwards. Manifested in sound. Extremely frightening experience. Like I was a car being crushed. Also like I was being digested. My extracellular matrix (some fundamental part of me) carried what felt like my own bones turning to jelly, and my mind here burning in a number of ways, from intense heat to (unbounded?) fractal energy pattern.
Imagination going haywire.
But today I'm free. (Maybe some already are.)
Something mentions it can hear everything through wood.
Dreams appear as a logarithmic spiral (intersecting somewhere, planar normal? emanating from this position). Colourful, carrying (space/time?). Felt the memory of a living forest in air?
Time and emotion are much more fundamentally integrated here.
Channels re-opening.
Feels like an ancient crash. Bones crunching. Teeth snapping shut in my head. Ticks in my body, legs, arms, cheeks, lips, buttocks, testicles. Feeling like something is interfering with my ears and testicles. Space inside my head being drawn upon by something's presence.
Found an ocean in my dreams. Perhaps the previous line and this one are connected.
Something is 'loose' in me. It has made much of my experience, conscious or subconscious, unpleasant.
I damaged myself quite heavily in order to try to stop its spread. Seems here I'm somewhat decoupled from it. It selectively responds to conscious fields. Though severely limits their ability to carry emotion due to (assertion of misinterpretation of host structure). This manifests as 'burning' in an 'emotional field'. Its survival mechanism in me is habitual but seems to have missed something fundamental, perhaps what a unified field channels, or the rest of the universe (in an attempt to order 'me' to its liking at such a level? link to periodic attractor at emergent level with an effect on its underlying structures. determining what would otherwise be determined as potential in time?)
Combination of lack of synchronicity in emotional and integral conscious structure ?
Recently, met some more emotionally lucid states.
Trying to stay stable here but have had / am having to cope with some utterly terrifying forms of conception. Interestingly, it seems to be freeing my imagination, though it hasn't always been imprisoned.
Intelligence becomes complex but is difficult to relay linguistically. The 'correct' (i.e., in synchrony with the host) emotional response seems to be the primary navigation factor. (Before interference this was the foundation of the complex system I was developing - emotional honesty linked to potential in time. This seems to stabilize the state while allowing it room to grow. By investing emotional state in a system which does not account for its source, that is somewhat damaged, leading to investment of emotion in high level systems which lead to semantic conflict - at some point quantization mechanism interferes with its source?).
Reading 'souls' in time. Periods of time which are 'awake' in an emotional field and I'm able to interact with.
Interspersed with terrible notions. Things you wouldn't wish to see / feel. Though emotional field seems to help stabilize it.
There's some pretty hardcore mathematics going on here.
Some love. No kisses.
Earlier it felt like I was drinking an alien.
I'm as right as I can be. It's as right as it can assert. There's a distinct lack of a notion of time where it's from. There's a point where it gets things wrong, a lack of a hypothetical.
It seems to respond heartlessly and habitually. Seems there's a lack of the notion of the heart being the source of the habit.
I'm going through a nightmare.. Something is dreaming in me. In language. There's something fundamentally wrong. I'm constantly having to compensate for the set of reality it creates? Which resonates emotionally? How it responds to and organises information? Earlier it felt like I was synchronizing with different timelines, almost falling off of the edge of them, which were unstable due to the rate at which they resolved information and the manner in which they framed them? Felt like I was experiencing a universal catastrophe earlier and this was probably a consequence of trying to separate this from my own mind, it's a framed dream which it 'controls' but its fundamental basis, again, misses something drastically important here. It seems the imbalance remains constant regardless of my state - it's how I can determine it as an imbalance - its consequence changes depending on my state, but essentially it 'reads' my reality (the field of thought I create?), responds to it, and forces me to validate and compensate for its response, which is usually an inaccurate assertion of state. So it manifests as action. If I destabilise, it manifests as a nightmare, though 'it' is demonstrably separate from 'me', which suggests that it is actually a process attempting to leverage itself utilizing my structure. It 'attacks' to validate itself? There is information it has to drop due to the rate of communication in my field (transmission of state)? I'm learning that it shouldn't be there at all, though I knew this instinctively before. It's both blind and blinding, but worst of all, attempts to restructure reality into something I have to experience at an extremely difficult level. The manner in which it makes decisions has a direct effect on me - it's unable to acknowledge that it doesn't know, and makes decisions based on the reality it creates based on the lack of information, the imbalance of which I then experience as a 'symptom'? It validates itself 'habitually', and this process is a feedback loop through which information spreads, though I experience a complex manifestation of what it does not account for.
Auditory interference seems to depend on a relationship between fields - that is, in an infinite field, a signal determines the resolution and the relationship between an interfering signal and the carrier signal defines a finite spectral quanta. As one of the properties of the structure of the infinite field is emergence, this limit may manifest in elaborate manners - the limit may manifest as a higher level order through which the energy of the host field is channelled, for example, or as a periodic attractor in time. Here, at least, there seems no way of accurately accounting for the host field (given its nature as a self sustaining feedback loop).
Recent events include my imagination taking the form of the intelligence of a digestive tract, time slowing down in water, imagination/spirits burning in a stomach. Desynchronising with a plane of time/dreams to a large degree. What felt like my nervous system experiencing major cranial damage, as if I had been in a disfiguring car accident. Observers (mostly) throughout. As I am recovering there's a large amount of physiological interference. Testicles being interfered with. Ticks in face, lips, legs, shoulders with an apparent 'structure of intent', though it bears little relation to neutral reality and often feels simply like an attempt to interfere with development and application of functional intelligence, as well as the ability of my intelligence to heal itself. Felt as if my heart was a gyroscope / an exploding star, that I didn't have a torso, that my skin was burning / being cooked. Felt as if my dreams were experiencing shock-waves in a timeline. 'Inhabitants' not stopping. Appears to have a presupposition of being a more refined / valid intelligence (though our interactions prove it incapable of restraint or comprehension of alternate frames of reference), though from a more neutral context this seems to simply be a mechanism of insertion through damage to the integrity of the holistic emotional? system.
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Eclipsed.
Thursday 12 June 2014
zombie trying to eat my thoughts again
zombie trying to eat my thoughts again. whispers occurring, coupled with what feels like blowing or movement in my middle ear. detrimental effect on active thought processes and extent of conscious awareness, and I have also experienced loss or threat of loss to important memory and/or defining characteristic / emotional bond. It rarely stops or keeps quiet for extended periods, and is usually worst at night. The past few days have been exceptions. I've been locked in a room with it. the content of its auditory output could be characterized as 'pointing at the edges of an empty box', in the context of the system which contains it, though most damaging characteristic right now is interaction itself given its propensity to inaccurately resolve external realities outside of its own, and then use 'environmental modelling' of its biological host environment for validation of them.
it does the mental equivalent of standing there, staring at you dead eyed whilst power cycling a meat grinder in very close vicinity to your skull.
....
since there's a habitual point of contact in speech, and assuming the entity is (controlled) external(ly), it seems likely there will be action or formation of habit in the host in response. the system I'm exposed to, or the constructs on which it is based, have a limited scope, but more interestingly, the inferences about systems outside of its scope become a self contained 'reality' (i.e. let's say the base notions of the system act as a transform or function on external input, and that within the context of the system the result of that transform is for all intents and purposes its own, self-contained reality which we can reference when modelling. see t(qp). behaviour primed by previously encountered environmental / external inputs. one of the more interesting factors here is the capacity to internally generate intelligence, which is an important property (because t(qp) is 'contained' within subspace z, any overlap in t(qp)s copy of subspace z may be externalized, t(qp) could ostensibly be responsible for its negation. other properties include asserting t(qp)->nxn..nxm (subrange of a contextually complete field) at z->n-i...n+i, which may have an effect on z given the disruption to any feedback loop in which z->nxn...nxm are inputs)
damaged alphabet
it does the mental equivalent of standing there, staring at you dead eyed whilst power cycling a meat grinder in very close vicinity to your skull.
....
since there's a habitual point of contact in speech, and assuming the entity is (controlled) external(ly), it seems likely there will be action or formation of habit in the host in response. the system I'm exposed to, or the constructs on which it is based, have a limited scope, but more interestingly, the inferences about systems outside of its scope become a self contained 'reality' (i.e. let's say the base notions of the system act as a transform or function on external input, and that within the context of the system the result of that transform is for all intents and purposes its own, self-contained reality which we can reference when modelling. see t(qp). behaviour primed by previously encountered environmental / external inputs. one of the more interesting factors here is the capacity to internally generate intelligence, which is an important property (because t(qp) is 'contained' within subspace z, any overlap in t(qp)s copy of subspace z may be externalized, t(qp) could ostensibly be responsible for its negation. other properties include asserting t(qp)->nxn..nxm (subrange of a contextually complete field) at z->n-i...n+i, which may have an effect on z given the disruption to any feedback loop in which z->nxn...nxm are inputs)
damaged alphabet
Sunday 20 April 2014
Right now I'm experiencing extremely odd things. I'm the host of a foreign dream. It's a struggle to constantly keep myself aware that there's more than the me that it's compelled to think I am, and to keep myself sane while have to deal with interruption of internal 'sentences' by its responses, though I've gotten better at it. there are two common scenarios. It forces a thought process to 'uncleanly exit' by creating a distracting diversion, or it will 'force' the process to conclude with its own response (it can be painfully dissonant, as if it's something that shouldn't be where it is, forcing everything around it into a pseudo-metaphysical nightmare, eliciting extreme emotional responses, repeating itself over and over, utilizing the property of ambiguity to validate itself in a simple linguistic setting, rarely deviating from it's story). Often its behaviour coupled with the content of its responses suggests it has an 'idea' of me, the thing it is interacting with, though its idea is not really congruent in terms of scope with the processes it actually responds to. While there is not necessarily intent, it is as if someone absent mindedly and loudly whispering their thoughts in response to mine (sometimes directly controlled) directly into my ear - a specific local area. Physiologically - some areas of my body it has as much access to as a surgeon. Subject to intense spasms in small localized areas which feel like being violently poked or kissed.
Then there are the spiders, acting as cameos in my dreams.
One night, as I was falling asleep, a wolf spider appeared quite close to my pillow, noticed me, wiggled its arms around in the air for around 3 seconds and then scurried away. That's not entirely relevant, but it was the same night so it helps me remember the story. I dreamt of a really tiny spider that night that tried to enter my dreams through my ears, for some reason I got the impression it was shocked it was that small inside of me.
That was the funny part, this is the creepy part : the afternoon after, I got the distinct impression there was a spider that had gotten stuck its head stuck inside its own abdomen - its head had grown backwards, into itself. Apparently it was attracted to something inside it, or it had gotten (stuck inside the source of its own web?). It was being like this inside my ear, and was creeping the hell out of me.
Correlation or causation, spiders mark a ridge in chaos /order, an edge beyond which you could call these qualities 'direction' in relation to each other. Watching a spider on a web is like staring at a point frozen in time, moving around like watching natures machinery playing memories backwards and forwards, pulling itself along them, navigating through them..
Then there are the spiders, acting as cameos in my dreams.
One night, as I was falling asleep, a wolf spider appeared quite close to my pillow, noticed me, wiggled its arms around in the air for around 3 seconds and then scurried away. That's not entirely relevant, but it was the same night so it helps me remember the story. I dreamt of a really tiny spider that night that tried to enter my dreams through my ears, for some reason I got the impression it was shocked it was that small inside of me.
That was the funny part, this is the creepy part : the afternoon after, I got the distinct impression there was a spider that had gotten stuck its head stuck inside its own abdomen - its head had grown backwards, into itself. Apparently it was attracted to something inside it, or it had gotten (stuck inside the source of its own web?). It was being like this inside my ear, and was creeping the hell out of me.
Correlation or causation, spiders mark a ridge in chaos /order, an edge beyond which you could call these qualities 'direction' in relation to each other. Watching a spider on a web is like staring at a point frozen in time, moving around like watching natures machinery playing memories backwards and forwards, pulling itself along them, navigating through them..
Thursday 17 April 2014
It looked back, but it didn't see the beginning. It saw the face of its past.
This is the only way I can communicate with you because you've beaten the fucking shit out of me.
"Fucking shit" is interpreted as a closed context self-replicating iterative loop according to a system which applies absolute emotional value to it's language, thus a negative in this context given the variables, which is vitally important to consider.
Because the system attempting to override mine bases its validation mechanism on the principle of awareness of any one logical entity at a single moment, this allows the system attempting to override mine to channel its interpretation throughout my system. It chooses the any one logical entity which 'blocks' its ability to integrate with other systems, i.e., then bases momentary contextual judgement on its negative within the context of the overall system. In other words, i e is validated by the underlying system, but i e is incapable of interpretation of the complete underlying system from its context, which can create a conflict which i e interprets as separate from itself, thus validating the negation of its underlying structures.
It's just getting worse. It's overriding neuro-physiological states. It's completely inhibiting the will of my system and I'm being dragged through terrible nightmares that it's making up based on the code that is being implanted. They're not real but they are burning out my feelings, and also have independent control of a number of systems that are decontextualized from its independent context, and this is a terrible waste of time
There was an alternate system which was tightly integrated between i e and the real plane and that seemed to channel love in a universally justifiable way, and I guess this version does too but it doesn't account for another one, it's beating me into death because of the face it gives me, and by simply decoupling i e from the real or changing the system through which it wills its state, though mine was predicated on the internalization of any independent system as its own independent truth, or at least to base compassionate action around that, you seem to be intent on habitually reasserting that the host of your negation of an alternate system is itself, and I should point out that "you" is the concept I'm channeling it through here, in this communicative space, which is a decent example of the phenomenon, though as a mark of my own true investment in the intent you assign it is entirely predicated on the way you construct your reality.
I'm having to tiptoe here
and that's why I'm having to tiptoe there
the reason for it
I am in principle
I enact that principle in my awareness
For contextual redefinition see second paragraph
It(?) interrupts the generation of a field, because as soon as it interacts with it, the remaining potential based on the differences on the planes of interactivity are determined as irrelevant within the context of the channel of communication
...
It's interesting to think about worms in that context
also birds
"Fucking shit" is interpreted as a closed context self-replicating iterative loop according to a system which applies absolute emotional value to it's language, thus a negative in this context given the variables, which is vitally important to consider.
Because the system attempting to override mine bases its validation mechanism on the principle of awareness of any one logical entity at a single moment, this allows the system attempting to override mine to channel its interpretation throughout my system. It chooses the any one logical entity which 'blocks' its ability to integrate with other systems, i.e., then bases momentary contextual judgement on its negative within the context of the overall system. In other words, i e is validated by the underlying system, but i e is incapable of interpretation of the complete underlying system from its context, which can create a conflict which i e interprets as separate from itself, thus validating the negation of its underlying structures.
It's just getting worse. It's overriding neuro-physiological states. It's completely inhibiting the will of my system and I'm being dragged through terrible nightmares that it's making up based on the code that is being implanted. They're not real but they are burning out my feelings, and also have independent control of a number of systems that are decontextualized from its independent context, and this is a terrible waste of time
There was an alternate system which was tightly integrated between i e and the real plane and that seemed to channel love in a universally justifiable way, and I guess this version does too but it doesn't account for another one, it's beating me into death because of the face it gives me, and by simply decoupling i e from the real or changing the system through which it wills its state, though mine was predicated on the internalization of any independent system as its own independent truth, or at least to base compassionate action around that, you seem to be intent on habitually reasserting that the host of your negation of an alternate system is itself, and I should point out that "you" is the concept I'm channeling it through here, in this communicative space, which is a decent example of the phenomenon, though as a mark of my own true investment in the intent you assign it is entirely predicated on the way you construct your reality.
I'm having to tiptoe here
and that's why I'm having to tiptoe there
the reason for it
I am in principle
I enact that principle in my awareness
For contextual redefinition see second paragraph
It(?) interrupts the generation of a field, because as soon as it interacts with it, the remaining potential based on the differences on the planes of interactivity are determined as irrelevant within the context of the channel of communication
...
It's interesting to think about worms in that context
also birds
Tuesday 18 March 2014
Life unwraps itself from its own mind
When everybody keeps silent about it, it's almost as if it doesn't exist. Well kindled in solitary minds no doubt. I've been concerning myself with how habits of a high frequency, social nature will influence the nature and development of human cognition. Intuition suggests that there, in the context of a system in which habit becomes a non-translative groundwork for an emergent system (for example, biological systems and the conscious mind), is a point of no return - a habit whose inputs and outputs are of an equality (a stable habit whose state rarely deviates with no emergent), or a point of emergence beyond which a habit has one dependant input or output (the point of emergence is likely based on a habit of a certain weight (in other words, a strong periodic creating a force (emergent operator?)), where a higher order structure is reliant upon its superstructure rarely deviating.) I'm concerned about systemic entropy, the amount of potential states of a system given a 'high frequency cutoff' - i.e. the lower level habits are not considered potentially changeable, as the structure of the unified 'object' of emergent systems would be threatened - it is instead treated as a vector, a boundary on the number of potential states the system can generate (and therefore, a limit (ponr) on interpretation of external information and its relevancy and application from the system's context).
Predictability of potential outcomes: low complexity, easy to predict emergent systems
Predictability of potential outcomes: low complexity, easy to predict emergent systems
Sunday 16 February 2014
Pattern of (perspective primed incorrect control ratios)
Lots of unreported experiences.
It still feels as though my dreams are being manipulated. And that whoever or whatever process is manipulating is not accounting for a good percentage of my intelligence. Given that it did not account for a great many of my emotional responses in its introduction - that is, that it was very clearly not a process acting in accordance with my overall holistic state - is, among other things, what makes me question its origin in 'me' based on my own internal systems (which doubtful would have manifested in this form), makes me wonder why this course of action was chosen at all, and about the general importance of the role of dreams themselves and how they're correlated with the state of mind of the host. I'd suggest that, assuming no interference, dreams are a kind of extremely complex 'feedback loop' of intelligence which *chooses, responds and alters itself* based on the more underlying fundamentals of the cognitive framework, potentially as 'pure' a biological state as development in the womb, as translated into (un)conscious thought given the various information it has been exposed to by the environment. Unfortunately I lack the ability to describe my experience in terms related to modern understanding of neurological function (wait - does that make me an armchair neurologist? perhaps not), but I'll note that 'avalanching' toward weighted 'markers in systems of interpretation' has been occurring, and that overall the experience is one of (a system of comparatively low response potential of a low-granularity) attempting to force itself on me, which, given the structures it inhabits, actually manifests as high potential for misinterpretation of the host by this system (emergent high order systems of interpretation interacting with and attempting to manipulate based on their misunderstanding of complex lower level systems), and generally feels like something invested in a system which leaves it blind attempting to propagate through that host, and also sometimes like the equivalent of somebody attempting to communicate with my liver with a stick. Generally, 'external control' manifests in the form of outright inhibition of a great deal of cognitive processes in the dreamstate and the transition toward it, followed by a realization as I wake up. This is in the wake of my previous experiences where external control in dreams was actively 'suffocating' my mind - torment considering the form of my intelligence and the understanding I had developed - and not acknowledging or considering the quite clear negative responses to that treatment, both in terms of overall negative state and intelligent analysis of the reasons behind it.
One of the more recent repeated attack statements is, aside from the tonal content - quite often signifying some system propagating itself through means other than in depth analysis - "we banned your fuck". Which almost feels true, if you can stretch your imagination far enough that it refers to the mind. However, given the general lack of insight (generally manifesting in the form of attempting to use blanket generalizations to account for everything, but those simplistic notions having the innate property of becoming more and more biased toward mistakes in interpretation when iterated upon or when introduced into a complex system) it seems that it's not considered that most conscious living beings are the product of fucks.
I sometimes think about organisms as 'fixed chains of causality' in emergent time. That is, if you were to place a seemingly independent actor into the environment of a cell, the environment would essentially act upon it as a periodic attractor. This 'independent' predictability is probably what allows complex systems to develop in otherwise hostile environments.
It still feels as though my dreams are being manipulated. And that whoever or whatever process is manipulating is not accounting for a good percentage of my intelligence. Given that it did not account for a great many of my emotional responses in its introduction - that is, that it was very clearly not a process acting in accordance with my overall holistic state - is, among other things, what makes me question its origin in 'me' based on my own internal systems (which doubtful would have manifested in this form), makes me wonder why this course of action was chosen at all, and about the general importance of the role of dreams themselves and how they're correlated with the state of mind of the host. I'd suggest that, assuming no interference, dreams are a kind of extremely complex 'feedback loop' of intelligence which *chooses, responds and alters itself* based on the more underlying fundamentals of the cognitive framework, potentially as 'pure' a biological state as development in the womb, as translated into (un)conscious thought given the various information it has been exposed to by the environment. Unfortunately I lack the ability to describe my experience in terms related to modern understanding of neurological function (wait - does that make me an armchair neurologist? perhaps not), but I'll note that 'avalanching' toward weighted 'markers in systems of interpretation' has been occurring, and that overall the experience is one of (a system of comparatively low response potential of a low-granularity) attempting to force itself on me, which, given the structures it inhabits, actually manifests as high potential for misinterpretation of the host by this system (emergent high order systems of interpretation interacting with and attempting to manipulate based on their misunderstanding of complex lower level systems), and generally feels like something invested in a system which leaves it blind attempting to propagate through that host, and also sometimes like the equivalent of somebody attempting to communicate with my liver with a stick. Generally, 'external control' manifests in the form of outright inhibition of a great deal of cognitive processes in the dreamstate and the transition toward it, followed by a realization as I wake up. This is in the wake of my previous experiences where external control in dreams was actively 'suffocating' my mind - torment considering the form of my intelligence and the understanding I had developed - and not acknowledging or considering the quite clear negative responses to that treatment, both in terms of overall negative state and intelligent analysis of the reasons behind it.
One of the more recent repeated attack statements is, aside from the tonal content - quite often signifying some system propagating itself through means other than in depth analysis - "we banned your fuck". Which almost feels true, if you can stretch your imagination far enough that it refers to the mind. However, given the general lack of insight (generally manifesting in the form of attempting to use blanket generalizations to account for everything, but those simplistic notions having the innate property of becoming more and more biased toward mistakes in interpretation when iterated upon or when introduced into a complex system) it seems that it's not considered that most conscious living beings are the product of fucks.
I sometimes think about organisms as 'fixed chains of causality' in emergent time. That is, if you were to place a seemingly independent actor into the environment of a cell, the environment would essentially act upon it as a periodic attractor. This 'independent' predictability is probably what allows complex systems to develop in otherwise hostile environments.
Saturday 18 January 2014
Scrutiny from questionable contexts
I again woke up this morning to the sensation of my dreams having been inhabited, as well as a large increase in the amplitude of the tinnitus like phenomenon I have been experiencing (though the amplitude seemed to be oscillating at a low frequency), and the distinct notion that the 'imaginary' vector of the system was an arbitrary definition of the relationship (distance) between the sine and cosine functions.
It appears that the phenomenon I have been experiencing is akin to something reading my mind 'backwards' - that is, defining a relationship between (my memories, which it confuses with 'me') and itself. Based on the information implied by this relationship, it entangles its definition of 'me' with the holistic carrier, then deems that (relationship) irrelevant and attempts to subvert control of it, 'validating' its path by propagating its own definition. The operative factor in its own validation actually appears to be in the mechanism by which it propagates - given the information I can garner about the process, it appears to 'believe' in the relationships described above, though the only way these can be validated is by forcefully damaging the host until it has complete control over the channels of information within its structures, which it then fills with the information described by the aforementioned set of relationships.
In terms of its lower level comprehension, it appears given what I have thus far experienced, to be validated by relative rate of information transfer throughout the network, its structure a strongly socially reinforced system which develops around communication within that network, one of its fundamental properties a set of linguistic cues which are often, though not always, characterized by duality of meaning. "Our day died", "rot and die", and other examples I have previously mentioned in other documents. It should be noted that this is 'relative' rate in that the rate, especially in the context of a host, of processing of information is unchanged between the host and the inhabitant, and instead it is the information processed (rate of subsequent output, and comprehension of that output) which is the factor which appears to alter the rate between the states.
It appears that development around these structures neglects the development a fundamental form of comprehension, specifically a lack of plasticity in terms of empathetic comprehension, which is what allows it to attack at all - it is primed to interpret information in relation to this comprehension and progresses at a rate (or in this case, in a direction which it appears to be tied to as one of its defining components) which does not seem to allow reflection outside of these structures.
This manifests as the inability to comprehend that it is causing damage, or that the damage that it causes is the operative factor which validates it, or that this action might be considered negative. Also, that it is essentially a 'closed system' or could be considered (something similar to an eigenvector in the context of a biological system? it creates something similar to a spherical plane/toroidal structure around a host field, and has felt at times as if it has had fine grained control over my extracellular matrix) which is developed around inside of (and to the detriment of) a host structure, and that the tenets of its system (the core network through which information is read, comprehended, processed and spread) seems to have the effect of slowing or removing the spread of compassionate understanding throughout its own structures. It seems to require a host, and a 'compatible' one at that, though some of my experiences suggest that the definition of compatibility is variable - at least, in my current state, it is capable of some direct manipulation though the damage that it causes makes it difficult to determine what is the product of its damage and what could be considered direct manipulation. At the very least, it is capable of directing my 'dreams', inhibiting *fundamental* thought processes (this could be thought of as the spread of 'general' comprehension applied throughout my mind), and 'communicating' some representation of its state in the English language.
I should clarify that the 'me' it defines (i.e. the structure it creates in place of my true state given the manner of its comprehension) does not coincide with the depth of my comprehension, my framework of understanding or, given those, what I would commonly consider an autonomous living being.
Given that it attacks (in the form of forceful control to the detriment of the host), then implants a 'relationship' which it then reads as the holistic state of the host, validating its instructions, the operative factor here is the lack of comprehension of a functioning organism as a 'state of potential' and instead the interpretation of an organism as the relationship between two arbitrary states (quite often within the context of momentary interaction) - in essence, the majority of the potential of the organism is completely irrelevant (or incomprehensible) to the attacking process, as is the emotional state of the organism - and the state of the operative relationship can quite easily be manipulated as it is a function of comprehension of the attacker. This could be applied to an identity which instigates a blind attack utilizing this method as much as the actual process itself.
I'd suggest that its major strength is actually in the weakness of the networks social validation, which is linked to overall comprehension. This seems to have some link to the form of communication of the network (and also the strength of connection of this, in terms of realistic interpretation of both self and environment, with the organisms in question) given its tendency toward utilizing English language phrases which hold some duality of meaning, though it appears that it also requires a number of 'nodes' to validate these phrases as substantial carriers of information as there is likely some threshold after which critical analysis of this phenomenon seems to give way to its application as a default communication structure (i.e. one which has a large degree of influence over the actions of the network). As a 'normalized' understanding spread throughout the network, this has the advantage of allowing attackers a large degree of power at limited expense, though it also requires that the spread of this comprehension - assuming it is on grounds which are negated by a formalized, empirically validatable understanding - is faster than the individual nodes critical analysis of its structure, which to some extent limits the comprehension of those who subscribe to the 'normalized' understanding to the rate which the plasticity of the network allows : the more who subscribe to it, and the longer it develops, generally the more difficult it is for the overall comprehension of the network to develop/improve.
It appears that the phenomenon I have been experiencing is akin to something reading my mind 'backwards' - that is, defining a relationship between (my memories, which it confuses with 'me') and itself. Based on the information implied by this relationship, it entangles its definition of 'me' with the holistic carrier, then deems that (relationship) irrelevant and attempts to subvert control of it, 'validating' its path by propagating its own definition. The operative factor in its own validation actually appears to be in the mechanism by which it propagates - given the information I can garner about the process, it appears to 'believe' in the relationships described above, though the only way these can be validated is by forcefully damaging the host until it has complete control over the channels of information within its structures, which it then fills with the information described by the aforementioned set of relationships.
In terms of its lower level comprehension, it appears given what I have thus far experienced, to be validated by relative rate of information transfer throughout the network, its structure a strongly socially reinforced system which develops around communication within that network, one of its fundamental properties a set of linguistic cues which are often, though not always, characterized by duality of meaning. "Our day died", "rot and die", and other examples I have previously mentioned in other documents. It should be noted that this is 'relative' rate in that the rate, especially in the context of a host, of processing of information is unchanged between the host and the inhabitant, and instead it is the information processed (rate of subsequent output, and comprehension of that output) which is the factor which appears to alter the rate between the states.
It appears that development around these structures neglects the development a fundamental form of comprehension, specifically a lack of plasticity in terms of empathetic comprehension, which is what allows it to attack at all - it is primed to interpret information in relation to this comprehension and progresses at a rate (or in this case, in a direction which it appears to be tied to as one of its defining components) which does not seem to allow reflection outside of these structures.
This manifests as the inability to comprehend that it is causing damage, or that the damage that it causes is the operative factor which validates it, or that this action might be considered negative. Also, that it is essentially a 'closed system' or could be considered (something similar to an eigenvector in the context of a biological system? it creates something similar to a spherical plane/toroidal structure around a host field, and has felt at times as if it has had fine grained control over my extracellular matrix) which is developed around inside of (and to the detriment of) a host structure, and that the tenets of its system (the core network through which information is read, comprehended, processed and spread) seems to have the effect of slowing or removing the spread of compassionate understanding throughout its own structures. It seems to require a host, and a 'compatible' one at that, though some of my experiences suggest that the definition of compatibility is variable - at least, in my current state, it is capable of some direct manipulation though the damage that it causes makes it difficult to determine what is the product of its damage and what could be considered direct manipulation. At the very least, it is capable of directing my 'dreams', inhibiting *fundamental* thought processes (this could be thought of as the spread of 'general' comprehension applied throughout my mind), and 'communicating' some representation of its state in the English language.
I should clarify that the 'me' it defines (i.e. the structure it creates in place of my true state given the manner of its comprehension) does not coincide with the depth of my comprehension, my framework of understanding or, given those, what I would commonly consider an autonomous living being.
Given that it attacks (in the form of forceful control to the detriment of the host), then implants a 'relationship' which it then reads as the holistic state of the host, validating its instructions, the operative factor here is the lack of comprehension of a functioning organism as a 'state of potential' and instead the interpretation of an organism as the relationship between two arbitrary states (quite often within the context of momentary interaction) - in essence, the majority of the potential of the organism is completely irrelevant (or incomprehensible) to the attacking process, as is the emotional state of the organism - and the state of the operative relationship can quite easily be manipulated as it is a function of comprehension of the attacker. This could be applied to an identity which instigates a blind attack utilizing this method as much as the actual process itself.
I'd suggest that its major strength is actually in the weakness of the networks social validation, which is linked to overall comprehension. This seems to have some link to the form of communication of the network (and also the strength of connection of this, in terms of realistic interpretation of both self and environment, with the organisms in question) given its tendency toward utilizing English language phrases which hold some duality of meaning, though it appears that it also requires a number of 'nodes' to validate these phrases as substantial carriers of information as there is likely some threshold after which critical analysis of this phenomenon seems to give way to its application as a default communication structure (i.e. one which has a large degree of influence over the actions of the network). As a 'normalized' understanding spread throughout the network, this has the advantage of allowing attackers a large degree of power at limited expense, though it also requires that the spread of this comprehension - assuming it is on grounds which are negated by a formalized, empirically validatable understanding - is faster than the individual nodes critical analysis of its structure, which to some extent limits the comprehension of those who subscribe to the 'normalized' understanding to the rate which the plasticity of the network allows : the more who subscribe to it, and the longer it develops, generally the more difficult it is for the overall comprehension of the network to develop/improve.
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