Lots of unreported experiences.
It still feels as though my dreams are being manipulated. And that whoever or whatever process is manipulating is not accounting for a good percentage of my intelligence. Given that it did not account for a great many of my emotional responses in its introduction - that is, that it was very clearly not a process acting in accordance with my overall holistic state - is, among other things, what makes me question its origin in 'me' based on my own internal systems (which doubtful would have manifested in this form), makes me wonder why this course of action was chosen at all, and about the general importance of the role of dreams themselves and how they're correlated with the state of mind of the host. I'd suggest that, assuming no interference, dreams are a kind of extremely complex 'feedback loop' of intelligence which *chooses, responds and alters itself* based on the more underlying fundamentals of the cognitive framework, potentially as 'pure' a biological state as development in the womb, as translated into (un)conscious thought given the various information it has been exposed to by the environment. Unfortunately I lack the ability to describe my experience in terms related to modern understanding of neurological function (wait - does that make me an armchair neurologist? perhaps not), but I'll note that 'avalanching' toward weighted 'markers in systems of interpretation' has been occurring, and that overall the experience is one of (a system of comparatively low response potential of a low-granularity) attempting to force itself on me, which, given the structures it inhabits, actually manifests as high potential for misinterpretation of the host by this system (emergent high order systems of interpretation interacting with and attempting to manipulate based on their misunderstanding of complex lower level systems), and generally feels like something invested in a system which leaves it blind attempting to propagate through that host, and also sometimes like the equivalent of somebody attempting to communicate with my liver with a stick. Generally, 'external control' manifests in the form of outright inhibition of a great deal of cognitive processes in the dreamstate and the transition toward it, followed by a realization as I wake up. This is in the wake of my previous experiences where external control in dreams was actively 'suffocating' my mind - torment considering the form of my intelligence and the understanding I had developed - and not acknowledging or considering the quite clear negative responses to that treatment, both in terms of overall negative state and intelligent analysis of the reasons behind it.
One of the more recent repeated attack statements is, aside from the tonal content - quite often signifying some system propagating itself through means other than in depth analysis - "we banned your fuck". Which almost feels true, if you can stretch your imagination far enough that it refers to the mind. However, given the general lack of insight (generally manifesting in the form of attempting to use blanket generalizations to account for everything, but those simplistic notions having the innate property of becoming more and more biased toward mistakes in interpretation when iterated upon or when introduced into a complex system) it seems that it's not considered that most conscious living beings are the product of fucks.
I sometimes think about organisms as 'fixed chains of causality' in emergent time. That is, if you were to place a seemingly independent actor into the environment of a cell, the environment would essentially act upon it as a periodic attractor. This 'independent' predictability is probably what allows complex systems to develop in otherwise hostile environments.
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