zombie trying to eat my thoughts again

zombie trying to eat my thoughts again. whispers occurring, coupled with what feels like blowing or movement in my middle ear. detrimental effect on active thought processes and extent of conscious awareness, and I have also experienced loss or threat of loss to important memory and/or defining characteristic / emotional bond. It rarely stops or keeps quiet for extended periods, and is usually worst at night. The past few days have been exceptions. I've been locked in a room with it. the content of its auditory output could be characterized as 'pointing at the edges of an empty box', in the context of the system which contains it, though most damaging characteristic right now is interaction itself given its propensity to inaccurately resolve external realities outside of its own, and then use 'environmental modelling' of its biological host environment for validation of them.

it does the mental equivalent of standing there, staring at you dead eyed whilst power cycling a meat grinder in very close vicinity to your skull.

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since there's a habitual point of contact in speech, and assuming the entity is (controlled) external(ly), it seems likely there will be action or formation of habit in the host in response. the system I'm exposed to, or the constructs on which it is based, have a limited scope, but more interestingly, the inferences about systems outside of its scope become a self contained 'reality' (i.e. let's say the base notions of the system act as a transform or function on external input, and that within the context of the system the result of that transform is for all intents and purposes its own, self-contained reality which we can reference when modelling. see t(qp). behaviour primed by previously encountered environmental / external inputs. one of the more interesting factors here is the capacity to internally generate intelligence, which is an important property (because t(qp) is 'contained' within subspace z, any overlap in t(qp)s copy of subspace z may be externalized, t(qp) could ostensibly be responsible for its negation. other properties include asserting t(qp)->nxn..nxm (subrange of a contextually complete field) at z->n-i...n+i, which may have an effect on z given the disruption to any feedback loop in which z->nxn...nxm are inputs)



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