Eclipsed.

Words aren't forming. I've been through a lot but words aren't forming. Since a few months ago, my head has been in constant nightmare mode. I've had some of the most frightening, loneliest, gruelling experiences of my life and I suppose I am fully drained, or more than usual, of the driving thought which led to intense feats of imagination (lol). I won't go into details, but during the recent time I spent being beaten and the subsequent time in hospital, I was absolutely terrified. I had not slept for days before the incident. Somehow the physical violence had a profound effect on my sleepless mind and it dreamt up a terrible nightmare to go along with my bruises. It chills me to my very core to think about it so I won't write much about it here. Maybe, sometime later, when I rekindle the ability to properly express it.